I finally realized my problem.

I get emotionally attached too easily.

If I was just able to hold back and just live in the moment without thinking ahead, would things have been different?

The feeling of sadness that engulfs my heart periodically is very overpowering.

I try so hard to conceal the cracks, I try so hard to make everyone around me satisfied and happy.

3 months ago, following one of the biggest walk-out in my life, you walked in.

You smothered the heart-ache, dissipated the negativity I had towards her.

I thought everything was fine at last. I felt happy, I felt really happy. Work didn’t seem so hard, and meeting you after work was something I really looked forward to.

Right now, I am back to square one. You blazed through my life in the span on a month, and I now realize.

I was wrong. I wonder if you would ever read this, but if you ever do, I take back everything I said. I didn’t and will not fall for you.

Our feelings are in tandem, rather I feel what you felt 2 months ago. We can be best friends, liking each other, and not love each other.

My dear twin... I really miss those days with you!

But okay, I know, you will never read this. BUT BUT BUT. I can tell you are happier now. I am glad I could be there when your life was in ruins. As much as I know more than I should, it doesn’t matter. I don’t give two fucks about so many things.

I was happy, you are happy.

That’s all that matters to me..!