This has been a hugely upsetting week.

My emotions swayed to and fro throughout the week, alternating between mostly anxiety, and disappointment.

Most of my problems have been solved thankfully, still remains a couple, of which is very manageable.

But come this friday, I will discover something, for myself.

I always thought once I put in effort, I can do anything, which of course leads to a convenient excuse for poor results.

I gave my life, to this game. A proven past winner, I should have no problems doing this.

But why is there this strange feeling, that everything I have done in my life so far is a fluke?

I wonder, would I consider this a learning journey?

Was it a blessing and good thing? Or have I already eaten my words.

Its a matter of the lesser of two evils; grass is greener on the other side.