Everything is wrong right now.
Nothing is working out.
I don't know fuck about any subject.
I don't know what the fuck is happening to my life.
My thoughts are going insane.
I lost all mood for studies.
I got fucked $300 for no reason.
Fuck. My. Life.
knnb fucking wrong
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Monday, July 27, 2009
lolol i feel retarded.
its 3:50 AM,
And im still watching anime =\
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Thursday, July 23, 2009
What was once found, was destroyed by destiny.
Once again, with hope renewed, there was a repeat attempt.
Was cruelly slapped in the face.
The fool which never knows how to silence his heart,
Will always be the one who suffers in the end.
Been having loads on my mind.
Endless frustrations, stress and varieties of problems.
Not least struggling with myself.
What I once used to enjoy, has became a bane to me.
Those simplistic, innocent actions,
Was akin to putting my hand in fire.
I have a strong fortitude, but how much can I take?
I have decided to run away from everything.
hey, i know i've been an bitch. even when you have been trying to cheer me up, i have been hitting back at you with snide remarks, and doing things that can be near insulting. so yeah, thanks anyway. I really appreciate your being there for me! knowing how blur you are, you may not know who i'm referring to.. so i shall state it here explictly!
ahahhahahahah
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Saturday, July 18, 2009
17th July 2009.
Firstly, Thank you everyone for making this day so special for me! (: the list becomes rather long, but yeah. Everyone! =)
Tax Lecture : It was pretty obvious that they were planning some kind of cake for me, and when shilin went up to the teacher for so long, i sort of expected the announcement. =| but what i did not expect is the feeling i would get when i was up there, in front of the whole lecture, and the whole lecture sang happy birthday for me. I honestly, almost cried. i don't know why, but it was like a very overwhelming moment for me, and seeing mag, linda and shilin with the cake, really made it all the more emotional for me. so yeah!
THANKS YOU 3 SO VERY MUCH!
AND THE BROWNIE WAS NICEEEE! EQUALSPEE
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Thursday, July 16, 2009
Monday : Tonned again. Insane, but fun shit.
Tuesday : Boring. Boring. Boring!
Wednesday : Boring Boring Boring Boring Boring Boring.
=|
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Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Ow. Ow. Ow! why so ex-the-pensive. GGGGGGGGGGGG lolol.
In Retrospective, I shouldn't have said those...
I'M SORRY!
//
Happy birthday Gilbert! (:
Go rape Jon back for a change!
Give him the Cantona kick =X
=D
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Monday, July 13, 2009
Mac and Cheese, with chicken breasts! though they look black, they were decent, except abit cold thats all. :\
imba cheeseeeeeeeeee. gg
familiar? i'm back to these bitches. hahahs. for a few days anyway. :>
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Sunday, July 12, 2009
Summary of one of the best weeks in a while! (:
Monday : School lasted 1 hour 20 minutes, of which WE were late. AGAIN. lolol. so it lasted even shorter than that. ahahaha. went gym after school, found out they close at 3! :\. met up with chow chow and alwin, ate then went TSW at Toa Payoh, and saw a car accident in front of us! lolol. damn funny the car behind was totally crumpled and destroyed, while the car who langa him, was perfectly fine. fucking funny. then home, and usual shit.
Tuesday : School was draining, as usual. started at 9. wtf. went through usual motions of lessons, then ya. bcomm ended early! like at 3pm. so gan song. go home lo! then at night was supposed to meet nick, then surya called me, then he came along too! so dinnered at like 7, till like 1030. hahahas. fucking funny. prank call is ftw!
Wednesday : FIT was a killer. bored the balls out of me. BCOMM test was slightly a killer too, think i did okay to bad for it. oh well. whatever. FUCK SCHOOL. skipped FIT lecture, went home first. Joshua came over to my house, then we made our way down to surya's house. cooked macaroni and cheese, and some chicken breasts. sadly the chicken breasts were cold before the mac and cheese was ready, so yeah ):. but still decent overall yea!
I REDEEMED MYSELF BITCHES. THIS IS FOR YOU _|_ LOLOL.
dota-ed, anime-ed, drank, snack-ed, lolol. overnight! slept at like 430am, when schools at 9. :\
Thursday : Woke up at like fucking 830 when school is at 9! I was crashing another class lesson, and i was late by 30 minutes! wtfbbq! yeah, so the tax tutorial i crashed was rather decent, the teacher was pretty nice! ahahaha. then after class, Shi lin gave me a birthday present! an 8 days earlier one! lolol. regardless its yellow and it has a pretty cool print! yellow! oh man, i never had a yellow shirt. so thats my virgin yellow shirt! ahahaha. its still nice though! (: will be wearing it soon!
Thank you BFF, SHILIN! (:
and amazingly, i went for IFA lecture! wtfbbq! went there to like just sleep only. whats the diff? lolol. after school, back to surya's house! same thing as wednesday, on repeat. except dinner was briyani!
Friday : sadly, one of the worst fridays in awhile, but well its all good! overslept and missed tax lecture, came school for COST tutorial, fucking surya, ask him come 1250, he come 1140, while i was still in class -_-. luckily the test started at like 12, then i finished in 20 mins like that, and went down to meet him! i got 19.5/20! i think everyone is expected to get full marks. but oh well, i'm an below average student, so i'm happy yes! (: went to his house, AGAIN. and everything on wednesday on repeat, all over and over again. except now we got pizza for dinner! ahhaha. and chow chow and gideon came!
Saturday : went watch Ice Age 3 3D. honestly i dont see the difference between 3D and normal movies, =\. oh well, it just feels a little cooler and abit more realistic i guess. after movie, after much deliberation, went to some hotel apartment at somerset, for drinks! fucking lol. we watched George of the jungle there! thats only cos there was no other DVD to be rented. wtf right. lolol. got a 350ml vodka, and 2 cans of beer each. so yup, all was downed. among the 3 of us. and the vodka sucked so bad, then it was torturous to drink that shit. the beers were pretty good though, anchor smooth, budget and nice! lolol. k that summarises my entire week! just need to add pictures which i got quite a few, but lazy to take off my phone now! another time ba! hahahs.
GG NO RE. THIS FRIDAY.
TONNNNNNNNNNNNN!
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Tuesday, July 07, 2009
I wonder why am i even trying so hard to attain grades anymore.
People tell me to not do my tutorials, and just play games.
Maybe i should listen.
Today, i got back my BCOMM long-assignment grades.
wow, a fucking C.
really. I think i'm in the wrong course. wrong module.
I don't want to be some CEO of some multi-billion company, raking in millions a year.
I may be EXPECTED to do that, but that is not what i want.
All i want is merely to own and run my own cafe.
I don't think i'll need an accountancy degree to do that.
and my final ambition is even more humble.
nobody but one person knows about it, because obviously people would laugh at it.
but not like that person didn't.
so ya. i won't say it here.
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):
demoralized.
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Monday, July 06, 2009
I tried so hard my whole life to attain everything i wanted.
So for once, I'm going to wait for the thing to come to me.
I shall stop pining.
Stop hoping.
Stop wishing.
Stop manipulating.
lets see, what fate has in store for me yeah!
(:
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Saturday, July 04, 2009
lolol same old boring chicken with rotini. =|
Baked pork loin with picquant sauce!
1998 Cabernet Sauvingon. year 2009. nuff said.
lolol
Pan-seared chicken breast with picquant sauce! more spicy version! GOSU! FUCKING NICE! BHB me. =X
Thanks you everyone when i was pretty damn fucking emo the previous week.
Those who chatted with me, a short while, a long while, whatever.
Those who shared the same plight as me, making me feel a little less alone.
And the very few fucking good friends i have.
really.
life would be fucking over, if i did not have them.
oh well, thats the one thing i'll probably ever have gratitude for.
AT LEAST.
I finally found that one thing.
A pity i can't tell everything to them also.
I don't really like people to know everything about me.
Honestly, I don't want that answer anymore.
You and me would both be happier if i didn't ask it yeah!
And to commemorate it,
I shall delete, that blog! hahahah
I'M ALRIGHT NOW!
and for the first time in the past week, i'm smiling at home, using my computer.
a genuine smile, to reflect the feeling of tiding over the last week.
(:
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Wednesday, July 01, 2009
Happy Birthday Chin Chee Chye!
A wonderful friend, person and cancerian!
sunkistcool yeah!
and just for you....!
MAN U ROCKS!
(:
for 1 day at least! HAHAHA =X
And the grand announcement! of the birthday boy's blog!
http://crappyhermit.blogspot.com
(: GO CHECK IT OUT YES!
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