This was a meal from mogu mogu at far east plaza, $5.5 and it tastes like shit. dont ever eat there if u go to Far East... you have been warned.
I bought a damn cool belt from Far East like 2 weeks ago, it has this metallic plain feel to it, damn nice =P. There also got 1 damn nice flip-flops.. but my foot is too big, so wadever =|
Today i bought 2 t-shirts and 1 flip-flops from compass point. the flip-flops quite cool also, plain brown, with abit of retro feel to it. 2 t-shirts, 1 plain black t-shirt, and the other was a brown t-shirt with some prints. i kinda feel it all looks cool! well, if it wasnt i probably wouldnt have bought it. damn cheap too. $18 for 2 t-shirts! woot
And i think im dying soon. My flu is not clearing up, and my flam is getting worse... zzz sian-ed.
CNY was decent for me, still in the gambling mood, but not many avenues to gamble, so its like mahjong every night only... but yeah its fun! like thursday i hu with lak tai, damn leet. =D Pong Pong Hu, Ban Hua, 1 animal and zi mo. sibei song.
KAKI HUI AHH
WA SU KAK ANG TIONG =D
Im so sian whenever i try to go for a tan. normally the goddamn pool will be flooded with kids, and today(wednesday 29th), it so happens... that... THE POOL IS CLOSED! WOOHOO! got a damn gosu 1.5 hours tan in the sun! 30 mins flip then 15 mins flip. i like afternoons in the sun. damn relaxing, but i cant go it all the time, cause
#1 im not that free.
#2 too many kids
#3 ill die from skin cancer
Lastly, one of the photos i took of myself while i was taking a bus to meet a friend. I got bored inside the bus.. so ya. Actually it was cause i was wearing a grey sleeveless shirt inside, then i thought grey with black looked cool, so i took a few pictures to reflect on my fashion sense! this does not equate zi lian.
and lastly lastly.
I drank SWEETTALK today. *GULPS
it was nice...
cause...
it...
was...
COFFEE ICE BLENDED! HAHAHAHA
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I have thought it through!
As much as I would have been willing to commit my 100%,
Its just not possible!
To begin with, single was not applicable
Then, unhappy was non-existant
And probably, I was just one of the many!
Well, i suppose that i was kinda stupid to even contemplate it,
Well i think i was,
But whatever it is, I wish you the best of happiness!
May i never be needed in your life! =D
and i really mean it, cos its good to be happy!!
=P
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Thursday, January 29, 2009
no more chimological emo posts.
GAMBLE GAMBLE GAMBLE GAMBLE!!!!
I NEED SOMEONE HOUSE TOMORROW
ANYONE CAN LOAN OUT?
=| =| =|
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Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Many people say that in order to be successful, we must throw aside personal feelings.
Follow your brain, follow the logic, follow the success.
Follow the heart, follow the impulse, follow the uncertainty.
The mould of which he was shaped in, was one of infinite failures.
The mould is a piece of old history that he have since eradicated.
In the aftermath, stands a embodiment, and avatar of such beliefs.
Of which he has since been rigid with his beliefs.
till now.
he needs to learn a huge lesson in humility.
one that is brought forth not by flashes of violence, or persuasive advice.
one that is absorbed through the innocence of you.
one that boils right down to where it matters.
to the place where he has condemned.
the heart
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Thursday, January 22, 2009
The feeling of insignificance.
The thought that when you reach your mortality, noone remembers.
The actions that pierces your soft spots.
It's not really very entertaining, when a few words spouted in glee, is actually beyond the threshold of ignorance.
The feeling is disgusting, yet desirable.
Disgusting as it makes u squirm at your thoughts.
Desirable as it gives u an additional impetus
When the internal struggle to ignore and recognize reaches climax,
one will dominate.
the winner will shape your character.
the loser will form a scar on your hurt emotions.
When the wound that have never healed get torn apart again,
it will be the time, where only 2 actions will ensue.
the strengthening of your resolve,
and the inducing of recovery on your scar.
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Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Ouch. Today dropped a 15kg Plate on my left foot. cant believe such a stupid accident can happen to me -_-. some nonsense. ZZZZZ
god im so tired! been sick for a week+, somehow i dunno why my sickness didnt develop fully, and its just stagnant heatiness cum sore throat. zzzz
School sucks. sux. sucks. sux. sucks. sux
period. fullstop. nuff said.
GAH.
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Monday, January 19, 2009
Damn gosu song!
I bet 99.9% dunno wads gosu... but thats for me to know, and for you to find out! time to start taking korean lessons people...
Gonna watch liverpool at 4am later. wonder how am i going to go school like that... ahahah. figure that out later.
TOP OF THE TABLE. BEST TEAM IN THE LEAGUE. BEST TEAM IN EUROPE.
Only 1 team.
Liverpool FC
Pepe Reina
Jamie Carragher
Martin Skrtel
Daniel Agger
Arbeloa
Dirk Kuyt
Xabi Alonso
Javier Mascherano
Albert Riera
STEVEN GERRARD
FERNANDO TORRES
GG TO U NOOB TEAMS OUT THERE
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Sunday, January 18, 2009
just to make me feel happier, after i lost in SKOTH4 lol.
=X
lost 2-1 to pin! =X =X =X
too long never train liao, also abit expected. even if win, meet hakim = gg no re also... wahhahaha. wait WCG09 then i shall start training again! =P
AND YES THIS IS A NEW BLOGSKIN!
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Just for the fun of it, another picture of another 4 eggs dead for my dinner tonight! or rather last night.
Hahahaha, i dont need an answer no more.
I rather it stay like this, then for me to try and make it better. Who knows, it may just backfire, and ill start singing, "How to save a life" lolol
=D
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Saturday, January 17, 2009
...
God didnt show me the answer in my sleep.
I will use my last charge of courage,
Let me hope tonight will provide the answer.
How i wish... I wish...
abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz
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Am i giving up too easily again?
Almost all my thoughts point to the direction that it is impossible already.
But yet, theres this small portion, that still remains incredibly defiant.
Should I try or should I not?
Its really a huge innate desire, but at what cost?
Its boils down to what matters most to me yet again. Am i willing to plunge into unchartered waters?
i need to find an answer in my sleep tonight, please let it be shown somehow.
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Thursday, January 15, 2009
over-usage of protein kills u.
nuff said, trialed, tested, proven.
GG
I NEED TO STOP!
Im not the same old me.
Im losing sight of what i formally was, and that may be a good thing.
Im harboring the most selfish thought that can be conceived by any human.
And. im not feeling bad about it.
must be the protein. LOL
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Wednesday, January 14, 2009
I swear im addicted to caffeine. Today school was ginkucf boring, read that word backwards, with LMS then IAC. LMS was still decent, after i went school 1 hour late, but IAC, was GG NO RE to me. went class and had to submit some evaluation of other groups work on the spot. i spent 1hr+ chionging it, cos he said those who finished can siam liao. and since it carried 20%, i did not want to slipshot it. after that, i dunno why i suddenly feel got severe bout of tiredness. i went up 74, to go AMK to change bus to Serangoon Gardens to gym, no seats -_- totally FLOODED with people. >.< then after that i took 136 down to gardens. got damn pain headache liao. in the end, i went gym for like 25 minutes? wasted 2+ scoops of whey. but the sauna then shower was goooood. =D and reach home 6+, slept till 7+ still got headache. Dinner i drink 1 cuppa coffee, and im feeling fine. WTF. i should have drank my first cup earlier. >.<
anyway...
1.5 tbl spoons peanut butter + 4 eggs + coffee = dinner! wooootx
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Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Interesting how can anyone dig up my old fanfiction, especially since i last updated it July 2008. that is like 6 months ago? wow. well, i kinda like that story too, but ever since my computer reformatted, i really lost the plot i initially wanted to write, and worse off, i forgot it! ._.
It was such a nice story to write too! =|
Back to writing fiction?
fiction rocks more than real life. The creativity that can be expressed is limitless and goes beyond etiquette, and to a certain extent, fantasy. Well, i will probably start writing soon. wootz
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Monday, January 12, 2009
This post is about my friend, who supposedly got STALKED to her house. Kinda interesting and a rare occurrence how that would happen, especially in a supposedly safe place like Singapore, and by a "20 year old army man, well built". ROFL. I knew Serangoon was the best neighbourhood, and thats why i stay in Serangoon! Free from stalkers ftw! Ok as if anyone would stalk me anyway, its me who stalk them... ^^ GG_GG
On a more serious note, i guess it was because she was too attractive,(or the guy was too despo. Which one i wonder.) for such a incident to occur. Being freaked out is perfectly normal i would think, and i never had any past experiences with such things, so i can't really emphatize much. Regardless, don't worry! =P anything goes wrong, can jio me come and defend you! sounds weird, but yeah i would for a friend, for the right causes of course. =P
"Skirmish for bubble tea lures male stalker" =X
9 eggs for today's dinner and tomorrow's breakfast + mid morning meal. Wootx =P
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Sunday, January 11, 2009
My new jacket; Sinister team jacket
i think the Oxy is damn cool. damn personalized, damn chio. woot
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Saturday, January 10, 2009
1 photo is me after i finished dying my hair...
other is me wearing a blazer! woot! got a few more photos of that, but im not that zilian ^^
Ip man is pwange
and im not a taf dlo nam >.<
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Thursday, January 08, 2009
someone.
something.
somewhere.
Oxygen of 2005...
u need to die for good.
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Wednesday, January 07, 2009
Cancer Astrology June 21 - July 22
Cancer Strength Keywords:
- Loyalty
- Dependable
- Caring
- Adaptable
- Responsive
Cancer Weakness Keywords:
- Moody
- Clingy
- Self-pitying
- Oversensitive
- Self-absorbed
Cancer and Independence:
Cancer is the astrology sign that is packed full of contradictions so when it comes to independence, they possibly can or can not be independent. On one side, they have the perseverance and drive to do what needs to be done, they are self-sufficient and do not need to depend on other people for the material and physical things in life. On the other hand, they depend on people for emotional support and encouragement. A Cancer that is not fully self-actualized will need the constant support of others and will not be very independent but the Cancer that is 'evolved' and has properly harnessed their emotional issues will be wildly successful as an independent human being. They crave attention and comfort from other people and they are happiest when they have a small, close knit group of friends or family.
Cancer and Friendship:
Cancer is extremely loyal to those who appreciate and support them, they are the nurturer of the zodiac and will protect and cherish the person for a long time. One of the greatest things about Cancer is their ability to make others feel good about themselves and loved. This is because instead of doing this for themselves, they project this onto other people. This is a positive cycle because in making others feel nurtured, wanted and loved, they in return feel good for making someone feel good. Other people can lean on and depend on cancer, they will listen to people's problems and help them however they will rarely express their own deep feelings to anyone. People who want to share deep emotional thoughts and opinions with a Cancer might feel that the scales are tipped on one side for cancer will rarely reveal it's true deep feelings. A friend of Cancer is usually a lifelong devoted friend that can be trusted.
Cancer and Business:
Once cancer resolved their emotional issues such as shyness and insecurity, the powerful character will shine though, there is practically nothing they can't do. They have incredible perseverance and will stand up for what they believe in. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake. They are excellent business people and investors because of their intuitive and psychic ability and their creative forward thinking mind, they are able to predict future trends. They attract wealth very well and know where to invest. Money and financial well being is very important to Cancer and this can help their drive in business. They need financial security and if they allow themselves to properly focus their energy and do not allow their emotions to over take them, they are more then capable of obtaining their financial goals and being incredibly successful business people.
Cancer Temperament:
They are complex, fragile, unpredictable and temperamental and need constant support and encouragement, more then any other astrology signs, Cancer needs to be needed. Even when all needs are satisfied, they can be irritable and cranky. They have an uneasy, delicate temperament. The contradictory nature of Cancer gives their temperament the wild mood swings and possible temper tantrums. They are easily offended and will sulk and wallow in self pity for a long time when they get hurt.
Cancer Deep Inside:
It is difficult for cancer to open up and have a close emotionally fulfilled relationship with someone because they are so closed off emotionally and physically to the world. This is driven by their fear of trust, Cancer has a difficult time trusting people. This causes built up anger and resentment inside, the contradictory nature really takes a toll on them and they can have a negative outlook on life, thinking that life is just too hard and miserable. This is unfortunate because when good experiences are to be had, they are skeptical of people and their surroundings and they experience tunnel vision due to their depressed outlook and they miss the nice things and happy experiences in life that make it worth living. In addition to lack of trust for people, Cancer is deeply sensitive and easily hurt, this is other reason why they have their defense shell in place, to avoid being hurt by others. Cancer lives in the past. They hold past events close to them and often dwell on the past. They have to learn to let go and live in the present instead of spending their time being sick with nostalgia. Cancer has a lot of emotional issues to deal with but once they overcome this large hump of shyness and insecurity, there is practically nothing they can't do. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake. Cancer is constantly feeling, feelings and emotions are hallmarks of this sign and this is the root of their problems, human beings are not as evolved in the emotional area and this is where cancer gets the brunt of their problems. They are the ones who have to cope with their strong feelings more so then any other sign. Once properly harnessed, there is nothing that is this powerful astrology sign can not accomplish. Harmony is very important to Cancer, it keeps them happy. Conflict of any kind causes great distress. Deep inside, Cancer is a very powerful sign, they have the ability to stand up for what they think is right and they have lots of perseverance and can be fine on their own provided they don't let their emotions get the better of them and have the stability they need. They are not fond of change but they have the ability to do what needs to be done, they are not pushovers or lazy people.
Cancer in a Nutshell:
Cancer is a mysterious sign, filled with contradictions. They want security and comfort yet seek new adventure. They are very helpful to others yet sometimes can be cranky and indifferent. Cancer has a driving, forceful personality that can be easily hidden beneath a calm, and cool exterior. The crab is Cancer's ruling animal and it suits them well, they can come out of their shell and fight but they can also hide in their shell of skitter away back into the depths of the ocean. They are very unpredictable. With cancer, there is always something more that meets the eye, for they are always partially hidden behind the shell. They are a have a deep psyche and intuitive mind that is hidden from the world. Cancer is deeply sensitive and easily hurt, this might be why they have their defense shell in place, to avoids being hurt by others. They are nurturers so they surround themselves with people, whom after a while can offend or hurt a cancer without even knowing they did so, therefore Cancer's protective shell keeps them safe from hurt. They are complex, fragile, unpredictable and temperamental and need constant support and encouragement, more then any other astrology signs, Cancer needs to be needed. When cancer gets the support it needs, it has a tremendous amount to offer in return. When cancer gets offended, they tend to sulk instead of confronting the persons face to face. This needlessly prolongs the pain and suffering. Cancer is very possessive, not just with material possessions but with people as well. Cancer will always want to stay in touch with old friends and anyone who has ever been close to them, because it is easier to maintain a friendship then attempt to learn to trust a new person. It is easier this way for them emotionally. If you befriend a Cancer, you will stay friends for a long time. Cancer makes the perfect mother, this is the sign that represents motherhood. They have unconditional love and caring more so then any other astrology sign. Cancer are very intuitive. Most of the psychics of the world are Cancer astrology signs. They have an excellent memory and are very observant and can read people very well. They can usually tell of other people's intentions are good or not. Never dupe a Cancer, they can see your motives. Cancer has a lot of emotional issues to deal with but once they overcome this large hump of shyness and insecurity, there is practically nothing they can't do. With their strong intuition, sensitivity, powers of observation and intelligence, they will have great success in anything they undertake.
Cancer Love, Sex and Relationships
What it's like to date a Cancer Woman:
The Cancer woman is a very sensual woman with deep emotions and passion brewing underneath the exterior. To reach these will require time, patience and tenderness. Do not expect to have her open up to you right away and jump into a relationship. She will not make the first move and will not be forward with you, you have to do all the work. Do not try to lead her on because Cancer woman is very in-tune with a persons motivations and she will see right through you. Trust is the single most important thing to Cancer. If you ever betray her trust, you might as well move on. She needs love and security. Cancer is the perfect woman for the man who loves to sweep a woman off her feet with romance. She is sensual, sweet and flirty and you two will engage in a gentle, flirtatious dance together while the relationship builds. Once there is a solid, secure foundation, the richness of the relationship will emerge. She is old fashioned, feminine and sensual and patient, if you are the man who can give her what she wants, a relationship with a Cancer woman is wholesome and rewarding and can last a lifetime.
What it's like to date a Cancer Man:
The Cancer man will not be direct with you. He will approach you cautiously and slowly. He will be very romantic and flirty and attempt to court you and win your heart with lavish gifts and attention. The reason he will never be direct with you is that he has a strong underlying fear of rejection. Of you are interested in a Cancer man, you will probably have to make the first move and ask him on a date. He falls in love easily and will make you his whole world. Once you "belong to him", he will hold on to you and can become quite jealous and possessive. This is because he is worried he will lose you to another man and that would crush his spirit. He needs you to be loyal and faithful for he is the same, in a strong and close relationship, Cancer men are the most loyal of the astrology signs. They make excellent lovers for the tender woman who loves romance and being swept off her feet. Cancer is very affectionate and thrives on holding hands all the time, and constant physical contact as he absorbs the situation and experiences with his feelings. The cancer man is all about feeling. He might not show it however and might portray a calm and cool exterior but underneath, he feels deeply and intensely. Cancer men are easily offended so do not jokingly make fun of them for they will take offense and get hurt, but once again, this will not be known to you. He will simply sulk on his own while he tries to figure out and dissect what you said. Cancer men are excellent male protectors, they are like the knight in shining armor. If you are the kind of woman that likes being looked after and cared for, and loves affection and devotion, this romantic, sensual man is perfect for you.
How To Attract Cancer:
You must be direct, Cancer will not. Let your feelings for them be known, this is the first step to initiating a relationship with a Cancer. This way, will not have to risk rejection, one of their biggest fears. If you are looking for a short fling, be straight with them. Do not lead them on to thinking there is long term commitment is there is none because you will hurt these emotionally delicate people. Trust is the most important. Build trust with them and they will gradually get closer to you. Give them approval and compliments but be careful because they will easily sense when you are complimenting them just for the sake of it. Be sincere. Ask Cancer for advice, share your problems (but don't burden them), they enjoy helping people and giving advice. They like culture and lavish experiences. Take them to a play or museum and a fancy, upscale restaurant. Do not force Cancer into a relationship or make them make a decision on the spot. They will shy away from you. Have patience, this is the key to attracting a Cancer. Be physical with them, they love genuine affection. They are very cautious and as time passes, they will slowly grow closer to you and you will have wonderful, fulfilling relationship.
Not bad... seems very true, i must be a typical crab then.. =|
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Monday, January 05, 2009
Why must i always be presented with stupid choices?
Things like, wants vs rationality.
If i do this, i would love it... but its bad for me...
I really want to eliminate it from my life.
Every pang of negativity i have, makes me want to scramble back for it.
The solitary pillar of solace.
zzz
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Sunday, January 04, 2009
escape to cyberland
real life is so full of shit
full of negativity.
full of sadness.
full of stress.
full of responsibilities.
just let me fade away.
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Friday, January 02, 2009
01.01.09.
1st day of the new year 2009. very memorable one too! i spent the whole morning hugging the bath tub? wooots and after that splatted on the bathroom floor and slept there. well, i wasnt too bad yet though...
spent new year's eve/ new year's day with my SAS friends at Raffles Town Club. it was VICES to the max! all the things that you needed to be 18 to do... was there! except the people. everyone was 17 :> Started the evening with a bottle of chivas 4 people share, then came texas holdem, of which a friend lost $90, and nearly went berser i overall won $5 from texas, it was already the max. luck is not with me :(
When new year's came. it was 1 bottle of johnnie, getting down within 5-10 minutes by 4 people. top up, tah, top up, tah, top up, tah. seh liao.. abit bth liao, go chill, come back up, 1 bottle of vodka, down in 5-10 minutes also. everyone goes overly high, shouting like mad, well me included. 1 person though, just died on the couch. He later puked on the couch, and himself. =|. went to petrol kiosk to get more stock of stuff. was waiting on the 2nd bottle of chivas, when the asshole that was supposed to bring it, forgot to bring it. goddamn jerk. so everyone just stoned in the room, till the fountain came...
and... i hate vodka!
i am chivas lover man!
unless its blue label!
New years resolutions :
Indulge in less vices!
I gamble too much, till the extent my bro told me that he is gonna tell my dad that i gamble(my dad dosent allow us to gamble). =|
i buy half my allowance on soccer per time. imagine if i lose twice... gg no food for teh month! =P
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