ok, thats it. i been fucking writing the same thing, over and over again the past week.

and the next day, ill write im okay. i'm sure its so fucking lame.

and make no mistake, ill be the first to acknowledge that.

so for the last time, ill let it out here. in future, this space would hold no more random rants. and till i got something nice to write, its gonna be empty.




rofl. i see no point in resisting it anymore. i've been attempting so hard, to instill fear into myself to ensure i don't fall too deep.

but when it becomes hugely apparent that it offers the last bastion of respite, and its so within grasp, ill take it.

the strength of my coils of delusion, patience, ignorance has been ebbing away.

its only inevitable, that one day, i'll be slapped in the face with reality.

and that what has been happening the past week.

after i told my friend almost everything, he called me amazing, to even still be the person i am now.

still able to carry out the life of a normal person, and rather carefree at that too.

sometimes i find myself amazing too.

but that's simple! because i live for myself! (: