the innocent aura that exudes from you.
its almost captivating, as i hold my reins.
every urge silently put down, every hope put aside.
i condemn myself for the lack of courage.
how i wish things could change
but i was never there in your eyes.
a beautiful angel. thats what you are.
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Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Day # 1 Completed.
Had 6 meals today
1) 5 Eggs (21g) 2 yolks only
2) 200ml Soy Milk (8g)
3) 210g boiled chicken fillet (45g)
4) 2.5 Scoops whey (60g)
5) 200g boiled chicken fillet (43g)
6) 350ml Soy Milk (14g)
Total : 191g! not too shabby =D
morning went for a 1.6km run, afternoon went for a gym session, really all it did was to get rid of the shit i ate yesterday. did shoulders + traps, forearm killing me, couldn't really do alot. but still decent ba... traps was totally bad. Lousy bench, no straps, nuthing. -_-.
Concludes Day #1 of my ripping!
Day # 2 tomorrow ^^
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Monday, December 15, 2008
This holiays is going to be a rather "packed" holiday by my standards.
1) BMGT Project
2) BLAW Project
3) FFA Nonsense
4) LMS Project
5) IAC Project
6) Whatever thats left of my e-learning junk
This holiday, im going to go through massive ripping. Hopefully i got sufficient conviction to bring me through effectively 2-3 weeks, of control. Now the vein on both my biceps is relatively visible, the striations(god knows how to spell this) is rather defined on my upper chest. decent triceps, improving lats and deltoids. my quadriceps... calves have always been good, and after yesterday's session, it seems really in good form. abdominals are also progressing well, with a near visible 4 packs! sometimes can see. sometimes cant. =|
And yes the most saddening thing about ripping? or maybe most "exicting" to some? the diet, and the cardio. 6-7 meals a day... means a shit lot of cooking. more cooking = more washing up = more tired = more lazy = stop cooking eventually = no more diet. cardio. usual boring stuff. 25-30 mins on average on a inclined treadmill, walking like 4-5.5km/h damn fast eh? amplifies the boring factor.
probably the most perfect diet i can amass...
1) 4 Eggs + 1x scoop whey (48g)
2) 500ml Milk (25g)
3) Chicken Breast/ Canned Tuna (40g)
4) 2.5 Scoops Whey (60g)
5) 500ml Soyabean Milk (20g)
6) Fish Soup (15g)
7) 250ml Milk (12.5g)
220.5g of protein! WOOOT!
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Friday, December 12, 2008
All of my papers are finally over!
1) FFA - If my depreciation question is correct, whereby software is not supposed to be depreciated, but amortized... then ill get a A!
2) LAW - Lost about 8 marks due to stupid MCQs... but other than that.. silently confident.
3) MAEC - fuck this. dint study enough to know minor details. and minor details costs me 8 marks?! wtf
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Monday, December 08, 2008
If theres ever a reason why the allure of games seem so appealing to me,
It is due to a simple reason called annomyity(dunno how to spell it, means unknown to others)
Unlike others in real life which are personalities magnets,
I wonder if I ever posted this before.
Recurring feelings are never good.
Not when those are bad anyway.
AHAHAHAHAH. Sometimes i feel im too hard on myself.
It was either of the two; perfection, or acceptance.
One is notoriously hard to attain, while the other required courage.
Which one would you choose?
9999/10000 of people would look at me with bewildered eyes, when i tell them my choice.
why 9999/10000?
cos the 1/10000 is the one i look at in the mirror.
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Friday, December 05, 2008
my 1st try was decently succeeded. i was naive then
my 2nd try was totally fucked, i was dumb then
my 3rd try...
seems so hard to even try anymore.
I hate real life.
=(
i want year 2006!
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Thursday, December 04, 2008
the old me seems to be coming back.
should i embrace it, or should i condemn it?
the bloodlust for victory and recognition...
along with insanity.
not a good idea. =]
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this is not good; im playing too many games, and common test is next week.
Reminds me of last term's end sem, which i flunk real bad, along with my d0ta buddies.
most ironic thing is that, once the exams finish, so do the games.
yes, its kinda stupid, but yea. thats what happened
Hopefully my results wont be as jialat as last sem =X
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Tuesday, December 02, 2008
Yesterday's and Today's lunch!
Yesterday = Seared blackpepper loin, Omelette with prawns & mushrooms, Prawns stirfried with mushrooms and potatoes!
Today = Instant noodles =|, eggs, and fried minced pork!
seems simple, but when you eat outside food everyday since u were like 10 years old, this food, tastes fucken gosu! =D
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