i officially am a sicko for today!

as in physically one.

couldnt sleep much last night, although i tried to sleep from 1130 -_-

i am so screwed. omg

now trying some recuperative measures, hope ill be ok by 9pm! so i can grind a little ;D

^^

ok it dosent work. now is 955 and my nose is leaking more than ever.

but there is no way im gonna spend a friday evening in bed dying.

one of the only ways is im too weak and tired to even play.

but ya i still will be sleeping soon. probably 1 or 2 more runs or maybe 3 then ill go sleep.

tomorrow am looking forward to my workout after failing to go for 2 days.

=]

Today talked to my gym trainer, and he told me im doing so many things wrongly ..!! T_T, but well, its constructive criticism, so sure! keep em coming! =D im gonna go join him for his workout on saturday. guess its gonna be chests and biceps. Realised i am doing wrongly my cardio, and shouldnt be hitting the gym so many times a week -_-, so im gonna revise it a little

Monday : 645am - 710am Run Rugby 5-7
Tuesday : Gym from 1-2+
Wednesday : 745am - 810am Run Rugby Maybe? 5-7
Thursday : Gym from 1-3+
Friday : Run from 645am - 710am NOTHING! =D
Saturday : Gym - dependant on mood
Sunday : 745am - 810am Run Swimming!

Day # 3 of Ripping Regime

Today = Abdominals... and. abdominals >_<

77Kg/Crunches
Standing Leg Raise

6 meals thus far, will probably be getting another one in, later at about 9+ :

#1 - half slice of bread @ 755
#2 - Hotdog bread! @ 905
#3 - 1/2 hotdog bread! @ 1045
#4 - 1/2 hotdog bread & soy bean milk @ 120
#5 - Strawberry cream bun ^^ ^^ ^^ @ 4
#6 - Egg Prata & A few pieces of muruku @ 545
#7 - 2 Scoops of whey protein @ 930

I dont really feel very tired, but im beginning to love the effects from this great diet. =D


This friday outing is canceled >_<. jerk going for some halloween gay night out, omg.

ji pai siao liao Zzzzzz boring friday >_> <_< >__<

Day # 2 of Ripping Regime

Today = Deltoids, small emphasis on triceps

22kg/hand dumbbell press
12kg/hand vertical lift(not too sure whats this called)
12kg/hand dumbbell raise(not too sure either =|)

Triceps with Lat Pulldown @ 65
Triceps with pulley @ 35

Today had another 7 meals!

#1 - 3/4 slice of bread @ 710
#2 - 2 scoops of whey protein @ 945
#3 - 1 Packet of soy bean milk @ 1200
#4 - 1 hotdog bun @ 2
#5 - 4 oatmeal biscuits @410
#6 - Strawberry Cream Bun @ 740
#7 - Mixed vegetable rice w/o rice @ 830



im so tireddd =|

when ever i think that life really sucks for me very badly, a few friends will pop out from nowhere and lessen that feeling.


im so lucky =|

Day # 1 of Ripping Regime

I guess it will be kinda exhausting with my new INTENDED workout schedule, and im already feeling tired already.

Yesterday = Biceps, 30 minutes inclined cardio / sprints

10kg/side bar curl
12.5kg/hand hammer curl

25 minutes 5.5km/h @ 11.0 incline
4 minutes of sprinting. 14,16,18


Today = pectorials, 20 Minutes Inclined Cardio

26KG/hand inclined dumbbell
20KG/hand flat dumbbell o_O
20kg/side flat bench press

20 Minutes of 5.5km/h @ 11.0 incline

Man.. im weak


Monday - Gym from 1pm - 2pm , Rugby 5-7
Tuesday - Gym from 1pm - 4pm
Wednesday - Gym from 850am - 10am, Rugby 5-7
Thursday - Gym from 1pm - 2pm
Friday - Gym from 1pm - 2pm, 4pm-5pm
Saturday - Gym
Sunday - Swimming

Today had 7 meals!

#1 - half a slice of bread, and 1 hard-boiled egg @ 710
#2 - 3 scoops of whey protein @ 1000
#3 - 1 hotdog bun @ 1200
#4 - 2 scoops of whey protein @ 130
#5 - 1 Ham & Cheese Bun with 1 Soya Bean Milk @ 330
#6 - half a packet of chicken rice @ 700
#7 - half a packet of chicken rice @ 1000

woot! and i swear 5 scoops of whey, will kill ur ass. -_-

Minimizing the amount of whinyness in this post, i have tried to change, but obviously there isnt much results, as i am still unable to break through a restricting barrier. but whatever, there are so many people alike me, but yet unlike me. Although it may be true that i would like to enter one, but for me to appear so nonchalant about it, when i am actually not, leaves me with little to hope for, or work towards. though i may feel a little out of place, or miserable to a little extent, this is the life i chose. Although i may be drifting away from my more "self-confined" life, there are attitudes that i picked up throughout that duration, that cling onto me, and i am powerless to shake that off.


I like the idea of fate, but i never indulged in the realism of it. Despite all the coincidences in my life(that i would regard), it all boils down to a simple conclusion. null, zero, nothing. And now, i look at myself in the mirror, imposing illusions into my mind, silently hoping that fate has came knocking again. again. again. But actually, its rather plain, and transparent, and that is I am highly self-delusional and all the thoughts, is kinda nonsensical, and the likelihood of those coming true, is regrettably next to nil. Why? Cause i don't even try. Perceiving it in a more honest light, i'm afraid to try.


But then again, for me to feel such anxiety, and maybe envy, may be a minor testimonial of my resolution. But then again... it won't work out. unless the unthinkable happens...



enough of that inner-sanctum thoughts, time for some more happy stuffs!

1)made over $170 in profit over 2 weekends based on soccer bettings!

2)Chippy!

3)Brewerkz!

4)Magarita!

5)veins? (o_O)

6)Clean break from WC!

7)There is no #7 ^^

bleh.

life is so boring and crappy.

suckksss

zzzzzzzz

Went for rugby training today.

I seem to be beginning to like it again.

omg, sounds like huge committments...

but will it turn out fine?

the list of to-do is piling up, and im adding more and more.

is it possible for me to nip my life in the bud, and restart my life on a fresh page?

hopefully it is,

but chances are.

it is

unlikely

Clever investments, Decent luck.

Need more of those, to turn my life around.

Attempting a major change

Wonder how it would turn out.

hope it would be good.

=]

那一天手心裡的愛 我放不開

等一個人多麼孤單我一分鐘又一分鐘在忍耐

握緊了手心裡的愛 我勇敢了起來

當你回來的時候我一定要跟你說 別再走開

Quite a couple of cool things happened recently, and if not for the fact im lazy, i will probably updated more stuff.

First up was prawn fishing last saturday, woke up @ 6AM just to go prawn fishing, and we had to cut up some piece of bloody liver as bait. very disgusting, but got used to it, and i TRIPLED my efficiency. i love prawn fishing... last time i went, some old man taught me(us) for that matter, the technique of pulling up the prawns. sounds retarded? what technique? go try prawn fishing, and when u catch maybe 7 in 3 hours, u will get what i mean. =). those 20 prawns... went into 1 spaghetti on monday for me! Lol! man it looked good. at least to me... =X



Then was going Chinese Garden Swimming complex for a "swim". its not really swimming, its more of a waterpark, with things like lazy pool, wave pool, slides, etc etc. kinda fun and refreshing as opposed to the monotonous venues of entertainment normally patronised.

Last of all was going Brewerkz yesterday, whereby we went b4 6, and we got 4 jugs of stuff. those birch nuts ordered new shit they never drank before, and all sucked. only my golden ale was nice ^^. i down about 1 jug around there, after they coped like 600ml of mine -_-. then ate chippy! chippy good shit too.. woots. reached home, had a SKOTH match, felt abit of headache, and very tired, so lost, and lost real bad. 2-0? and best part, is i didn't even bother to micro at all.

and today, have to go back to school to fix my laptop, which reformated, and is without any microsoft office applications. damn ma fan zzzz.

summarises last week of hols..

and of course 2moonsy. =D
and white td.
and soccer.
and gundam 00.
and heroes.
and ...

S.H.E album came out on 22/9/08. which was 1 week ago. once again, they are jumping genres, and now it has a retreo feel to it, which is kinda funky and new. alot of nice songs, well maybe cause im a fan... but whatever.

Miss universe.
Its quiet
The day is getting bright
the road to the sea

all is gosu songs and the album must be experienced from track 1 all the way to the end, as they take turns to play DJs, and play their songs. really very daring attempt at revolutionizing the chinese pop market.


And ya. wtf im dreaming of the past, somehow i saw her again. weird, but oh well... its not a bad thing anyway.. =O. and oh well, it seems like MOS closed down? i was working at Clarke Quay on sunday during F1, which is supposed to be bustling with business, and MOS was closed!? and whats more the signboard disappeared. i haven't even went in yet. zomg. =(


And ya i been meeting lots of friends recently coincidentally. From serangoon gardens, to even peace center. and not only gaming friends, but RL friends. weird. and LASTLY. i won my first SKOTH game! supposedly was supposed to play by sunday, well i was at Clarke Quay, so i told him to w/o me. but apparently he didn't want to, and i appreciate that, although i really didn't mind. we played yesterday and i won him 2-0, playing against his elves with UD on TS, and HU on EI. what happened yesterday, just makes me feel like playing WC all over again.

AND I CAN GODDAMN HOST NOW!!!
I NEED AT PARTNERS!!! =(