when the true meaning to life gets unveiled, I now realised that i've been a real fool, to be going after such mundane desires in hot pursuit. Everything is relative, i don't have to tread on the brink of desperation, neither do I have to feel such a innate regret when i fail. Life is so unpredictable, that its dangerously uncanny, the way life can manipulate our thinking, our feelings, and pop out with an abrupt turn, that leaves us abated, and wishing we could turn back time, and make a different choice, choose a different path.

Life is complicated, stressful, perplexing and detestable to most of us residing on Earth, and they have good reason to do so. School stress, workload, deadlines, relationships, the list goes on. I hated life, as it was for me, truckload of work, souring of relationships with many people. but its all a passing phase for me, when the skies clear up, i will revert back to normal, albeit with lessons learnt, but never applied. But yet, life can be a happy thing. All we need to do is to appreciate what we have, and not go overboard in fulfilling our demands, it will be then, we realise that life is good, life is happy, and life is meaningful.


i am one such person, if only i can keep this appreciation in a bottle, and indulge in it whenever i want But i cant. it will come when i forget all about appreciation of what i have, and begin to yearn for those i do not.

With my early departure from M04, that probably marked the end of any bonds with half of TA03 and TA04 classes. No longer classmates, just a familar face will be the mutual understanding between most of us, which is hardly surprising, as this sick practice has already been put into motion. Not like i will be adversely affected, this class holds few worthwhile memories for me, but made me bear the brunt of a bold decision. I now understand what you meant by, am i kidding. Half thinking then that there was a understandable fear of being stood up, i now realise that, you weren't even sure that I was serious. To put things into perspective, I was. But regardless, pigs dont fly, humans dont fly, I cannot reverse back time to rectify it, but what i can do though, is learn from it.


Whats M04? Chalet room number @ Coasta Sands - Pasir Ris. I was initially rather hyped up for this event. tonning overnight with classmates, who were avid gamblers, was a relishing prospect, not to mention the incredible amount of time i would spend away from home, granting me immunity to the annoying and frequent curfews forcibly implemented on me. I wasn't expecting a big party, with excessive amounts of edibles, I merely wanted to bask in the atmosphere, and take it as a 2nd KL trip. What i saw though, was a pathetically small room, 2 stories. of which one was cordoned off which i find particularly amusing, why would the girls in my class go to such an extent to ensure no guys go upstairs? Strictly speaking, which idiot in his left(notice the irony) mind would go to a room, which is flooded with people he is not familar with? i doubt anyone in my class would, but without divulging and stepping on the gender discrimination line, i would find it is rather childish, but amusing. Well, most other guys in my class didn't perceive it as i did, they whined about many negatives about it, reasonings, and doings. Well, its rather alright, since i do agree with certain points but not all.


Went there with intention of beach sports, beach soccer, beach tough rugby, swimming. in the end, a pathetic excuse for a basketball match, after we left the chalet damn early. at night was MJ session, taking up the entire lower floor, and 20 people or more, was present at the chalet. Kinda sad. haha.


Last thing interesting from this chalet, is the issue of gender discrimination which was brought up in the darkness, in between 5-6 AM. Im kinda lazy to type the contents and everything now, but i will do it soon. i have been neutral, and will always be.



Interesting statement by my friend.

"Weiyang, you know you can be very gentlemanly if you want to?"

"-_-. I know"

2 days into my 2moons career, and im lv33.

16+ lvl per day.. not bad =D

now playing abaddon, AK.

2H/SS

Fun stuff.

why not trieste?

i dun wanna plvl myself. or pitems myself. =) i wanna start my life all over again!

=D

With the conclusion of my accounting paper yesterday, my 1st semester of poly life... is officially over! Both sad and happy, in various ways. happy, cause i don't have to see some tutors which i really hate, and perhaps, a few classmates? sad because, just when the class rapport was beginning to gel together, next term, theres no way the bulk of the class will be together, due to class rotation policy. kinda regrettable, but i guess we will get together even in the next term, for some movies or something.


Brief summary of my entire 1st semester.

Introduction to Financial accounting.

Called my POA friend a noob, for accounting was merely pluses and minuses, before entering this course. realised that although it is indeed, plus and minus only, there was a slight different complexion altogether for this module. the lecturer for this module was crap, at least in my opinion, and its timing was 3-4 on a friday. not the best time for conducive learning for me. my tutor was pretty alright, as in rather good. she was patient, and could relate to us to a regardable extent. overall, i kinda enjoyed this module, except that i dont pay attention in class nor in lectures... leading to my current state. =(

Microeconmics.

Personally, the subject i take most interest in, cause of the great linkage to the real world, and concepts that explain why does this thing happen. its like relearning english all over again, in a different light that is. the lecturers was also shitty, personally i hate lectures... so ya. and the tutor was totally horrible. her first statement, in going to our first lesson, although we all were quiet,

"If you all don't wanna study, its okay, its your marks not mine. You get a A, my pay dont rise, you fail, my pay dont drop."

nice introductory statement. =) and it got worse... till almost the whole class hates her. ALMOST. overall, this module i liked the most, and even with a fcked up tutor and lecturer, i believe i will do the best in this subject, cause i like it.

Business Communication

Speeches. Reports. Meetings. typical managerial stuff. pretty much sums up this course, more like a english module in my honest opinion, but whatever. it was refreshing, taking time away from conventional mugging papers, to doing reports, and speeches. the tutor was very good too! didnt want to piss her off in any way, not like i like to piss any teacher off, unless they gl me. =) overall, this course was average, not too good, but not negative.

Business statistics

Maths? Probability? Tricks? nah, dosen't suit my style. mugging 1 night in advance for this kind of papers, lead u to certain damnation, which is apparent among some of my frens, and me. but whatever man. i like maths, though those chapters are not my pet subjects, i love doing maths too. so i kinda enjoyed this module, with the exception of the low marks i receive =X. the tutor was interesting too, not the best of tutors in the sense that he clarifies the answers, but he makes it a point to go thru tutorials, so i kinda absorb from that too. overall, this course is good! the best in comparing my personal preference of subject, and the interest the teacher garners.

IT for business

first impression, what a waste of time, and what a waste of time it is. the tutor was good, i wouldnt dispute that, but the lecturers was downright boring. first term, they gave us a PBL project, very extensive on workload, and honestly, my group and I just didn't gel. 3 girls and 1 guy, coupled with the fact that the girls aint very open-minded, makes me feel out of place. but whatever. they were hardworking, much more compared to those jack-asses guys, so looking for grades, this was probably the group to go. but i wouldnt say i enjoyed the duration, just the final project marks. exams was also a joke. i didnt study for the 1st term, and i got 86/100. really bloody joke. overall for this module. Teacher good, Marks good, others, a waste of time.

but to say the least, i learnt a very valuable lesson from ITB. :)

Creativity and applied thinking skills.

a waste of time. gay teacher, pretty much summarises this shit. but to say the least, i kinda enjoyed this course group work the most.. even though it is 4 girls 2 guys, but they are very friendly, and socialable, so its really more fun than any other group work i had.

Sports and Wellness

sports = fun! but flag football is kinda boring. touch rugby played football style, without the flow of the game... much rather touch rugby =|. but the ppl there was cool!

Lastly! IM STILL A HUMAN! ~!

8.21 in the morning of my last paper. wouldnt say im nonchalent this time. woke up with a bout of flu, really a lame pain in the ass. studied most of the practicals yesterday, now left only theory, and revision this morning. hopefully, what i do this morning, is sufficient to bring home the goods. JBI accounting, and then.. FOAD BITCH

Im going through another fcked up period of my life. to list it down briefly...

1. ITB paper stotmach ache, had to chiong through to go toilet... resulted in 20 marks gone. A - fucked

2. Business statistics, study wrong chapter, wasted 1 whole afternoon.

3. Business statistics, exam time, missed out on 1 sample word, got whole 7 marks wrong. Didn't memorise enough. Lost the rest. maybe 25 marks gone? time to fuck my A.

4. still have one more cb subject more. omfg.

SPF. really a joke. -__-

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FUXED

Havent did a proper write-up on the games itself during WCG, so here it is :).

Top 15 qualified : Oxygen, JayggX, Riskin, Girlyluck, Summoner, Gowad, Ashkane, Nickt, Revenant, Pinkly, vLae, Shana, Tagan, Timber and one more i not too sure

Top 16 matches : Gosubay vs Riskin (Bay)
Oxygen vs Pinkly (Oxy)
Ashkane vs Timber (Ashkane)
JayggX vs vLae (JayggX)
Revenant vs Nickt (Nickt)
Tagan vs dunno (Tagan)
Girlyluck vs Summoner (Girlyluck)
Gowad vs Shana (Shana)

Quarter Finals : Gosubay vs Girlyluck (Bay)
Oxygen vs Shana (Oxy)
Ashkane vs Nickt (Ashkane)
Tagan vs JayggX (Tagan)

Semi Finals : Gosubay vs Oxygen (Oxy)
Ashkane vs Tagan (Tagan)

Finals : Oxygen vs Tagan (Oxy)


Starting off from the round of 16, i was kinda confident going into the match, but against pinkly, i remember always winning 2-1 vs him. or not winning at all. The 1st match, TM he gave me a very hard early game, with his dk and fiends constantly harassing me, giving me no chance to creep. but in the end, i kinda pulled through with Farseer, Tauren Chieftian and my wyverns. second game was TR, where i got towered by him, and i stupidly got TC as my 2nd hero. if i got SH, i was confident i could still win -_-. but oh well. watever. 3rd game was GW, and it was sort of a side spawn, and i won the game from killing his dk and like 4 fiends at t2, he held for destroyers, but with lv3 bm giving me MH, he couldnt do much to my burrows. kinda nervy finish for me, heart rate really reaching very high levels.

Quarter-finals was against shana, both games on Terenas Stand. 1st game i went FS SH with grunt raider sw. i won the game from killing his shop repeatedly, with no breakers vs grunts raider sw and link, it was pretty much decided there. 2nd game, after scouting i was going a fast tech again, he decided to t1 tower me, but it was not very successful as my burrows were placed on the exterior of my base. following which i went to his base caught his low hp lv3 am, and won the game there.

Semi-finals was against Gosubay! Last year defending WCG champion. although i beat him twice in GXL, i knew that this dude can rape my ass easily. the 1st game was EI, where i went BM NAGA, and pretty much was a rather static game, more of a creeping game by both sides, when he attacked my base, i managed to clear a siginificant portion of his talons. i tried to counter, and got my arse raped hard because i was aiming his DH, which couldnt die. it was pretty much over there, and i lost game 1. 2nd game was EI again, he pretty much went the same strat, with me going the same, except i went 2 wyverns to harass his wisp and his first few talons. it was highly successive to the extent i went straight into his base, killed many wisps, and aggroed him till the game was over. 3rd game, i was expecting him to take TR, but he took TS. i was thinking that he would be expecting me to go a blademaster fast expo, so i decided to try out my other strat, the FS NAGA T2 tower. it was kinda successful, but took a decent measure of luck when i managed to down his lv2 dh, which was harassing my lv3 creeping, allowing my fs to reach lv3. gathering my 4 peons, and my naga, i knew it was pretty much over, he couldnt do much with my 4 grunts lv3 fs and naga.

Finals was bo1 because of no more time, it was HU vs ORC. TR was the map, and through low harassing early game, i got my lv3 AM pretty quick, and everything else fell into place. my lv3 mk.. 2 surorunds on both heroes.. and a win. =)

Olympics has dawned upon us again! the amount of records being broken at this olympics show one thing. Humans are getting better. Take heart in that, for there will be a time, where humans will bestow upon themselves, immunity to humane viruses and diseases, the perfect body. The grit, determination and sheer professionalism in their chosen field, has left me starstruck on numerous occassions. Be it archery, swimming, gymnastics, judo... they all have one thing in common. Everyone is a winner.


Olympics to most people, is merely the largest sports convention in human history, but as i read the newspaper earlier on this week. How many actually look past the outer-laying, the superficial olympics? Olympics is meant to celebrate and commerate unity of nations. It was depicted beautifully, in the article whereby a Russian woman, hugged a Georgia woman. both were on the podium. they did it in a demostration, a physical outcry to Russia and Georgia respectively, to end the war between them. Though it is unlikely, let us take solace in Didier Drogba. Who united Ivory Coast, through soccer.


Olympics is by far the best sports event i enjoy. But let us take it with a pinch of salt. lets look beyond the sports, and enjoy olympics, for the original flavor it was created for.

(Front View)

(Back View)

(Lanyard)

(My spoilt Copperhead ._.)

(Warcraft Community in Singapore!)
(Shana,AshKane,Tagan,Moon_goat,Gosubay,Nickt,Pinkly,meeu,Oxygen,Gowad,Riskin,Vello,Charm,Townes,Summoner,JayGGx)

At last i won WCG in Singapore!

Though i may not be going to the World-wide finals, i will try my best to convince herman to sponsor me to go. but i doubt it... But i'm still really happy!

Many thanks to my training partners : girlyluck(Hakim)!! =D Hentai(Hiangtat)=P Gowad(Xianfu) and everyone else along the way xD

Through this WCG i also probably realized that i dont even mean much to her! Nevermind though. At least now i know i shouldn't think about her anymore. =)

Maybe she dosent even pop by here, i've got no idea at all.

Kudos to WCG,and all other players! GG HF!

and Kenneth Lee. you PSK. i will remember u!


will upload pictures soon! happy day!

10:18 on wednesday night.

1st match is @ 930.

Will she sms me?

shes definitely not on MSN now.

I feel so hopeless.. the slight probability..

or should i just give up now?

I FEEL SO CONFUSED OMFG

I LIKE U I LIKE U I LIKE U I LIKE U ! ! !

how more obvious must i get?

or do u even pass by this blog?

1 more day.

The condemnation of Oxygen, or the embracing of Oxygen.

35 more games..

and 2 more days.


And everything in my life will change.

More, or less.

This evening, every single WC game i played, was that of a typical noob. I am too distracted. Too half-hearted. Pining too much for something that would probably never happen. I don't like the feeling im having now, its like deja vu all over again, although now i may be able to do something about it theorotically, im too afraid of failing again, to try. but yet, this is always on the back of my mind. I'm gonna leave it all up to fate i guess.

Please wish me good luck for my WCG, before thurs, if i still stand a chance. If you don't i will take it as though, i've failed again.

The person im refering to, is you if i have asked you to go out, and you told me after the common tests... and i never asked again

I am so very tired! my school life has finally concluded for the 1st semester, and now the study break is here, and im supposed to be mugging. But... WCG is nxt week! =(. Kinda sad... when i think back on my 1st semester... just when i was sort of beginning to enjoy school, the sememster ends, and next term, our class will be broke apart. Gah. =|

Now trying to mass train my WC before WCG, 6 more days... and im still 64 games off my targeted amount of practice games. thats a average of 11 per day! god. im so tired after 3 games, and how can i last 11 games? wtf!

I need inspiration and motivation!



1 thing big i learnt from the 1st semester

Never let a girl know you like her.

It dosen't work that way.

But i still wanna be with her... =(

sadasd