The reason why i can socialise with guys so easily, and totally blow at socialising with girls is very simple. i came from a all-guys school for 10 years. my CCA aka rugby, dont allow for any interaction with other schools, then IT club which i only played games for them, also have zero interaction, topped with i don't have tuition, or church etc. its no wonder my socialising skills with them, is near nil. =/

beyond that, im gonna start what i've put off for so longgggggg. and that is to continue my Fanfictioning~! xP

11am - 7pm school today, with only 1 hour break from 1-2. 2-7 is fucking hardcore.

why is it monday already. wtf

i hate early months of the year. at least this year.

Idol off-season..

Compy off-season..

hell but school is fcking in season.

this is some shit. ._.

Woot. just ak-ed team ARMY. kinda sastifying to finally AK some team. as a result, i think hG^ is gonna be 3rd or 4th in ESM 2008! which means... we get prizes! wooot! more money! ^_^ but i doubt its gonna be alot. but hey. every small bit counts. =D in the space of 4 games, i used 3 races. elf vs orc, human vs elf, orc vs orc, human vs orc. fun shit. =D now that EsM is over, its time for me to start doing my homework.. starting with my portfolio! 1 more week+ till its due, but i think i should finish it soon, in anticipation of other projs coming my way soon.

just 2 weeks into NP, and it seems i already got 3 projs. 2 major, 1 minor. kinda fucked up. But it beats reading books or listening to tutorials anytime. the first time i found ITB decent, was when she was giving instructions on the project. lawl. past week has been kinda shagged, for me at least. glad its friday, rather saturday.



Friday was cool. my friends forced me to go Brewerkz at Clarke Quay for a drink, and when i went there, there was already 4 people, so i didnt have to drink! rather pay =X. i just took their drinks when they were all so wasted for free! woooot. then went over to Serangoon Garden's for dinner and ice cream. Haato's Hazelnut and Chocolate Banana ice cream is kinda decent. with the Hazelnut one having a nutella after taste. quite unique. then walked home from Serangoon Garden's reached home at about 10. Clarke Quay's atmosphere is really nice =]


Just came back from my first ever session of HIIT (Yes, its HIIT) High Intensive Interval Training. fuck man. i took like 6 minutes to run 4 sprints. my timings were like. 1st run was 28s, second was 24s, third was 22s, last was a 100m sprint and i did it in 16s?!?!? since when was i so slow. or was i never so fast? -.- its some goddamn tiring shit. but hey, its only so goddamn tiring cos i fucking smoked too much the past week. gawd. i need to QUIT QUIT QUIT QUIT.

GOD HELP HELP HELP HELP

T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T T.T

CATS makes one bored. Creativity Applied Thinking Skills. mmm. But my project group is rather interesting. S&W i took flag football, something like touch american football. Rather hard to throw the ball for a first-timer like me. not used to it. >_<. im having trouble organising my thoughts. >.<

anyway

HIIP starts tomorrow! or is it HIIT. something like that. cant really remember but did some research on it yesterday and cant find it again today. so it claims that a 4-12 minute cardio session, works much better than a 30 minute fat burn run! so this is how it works. HIIP = Hyper Intensive Interval Programme. jog 30 seconds SPRINT 30 seconds, and that makes 1 minute! do it as many times as u can, up to 12. im gonna try that tomorrow. but honestly. sprinting for 30 seconds? i know it looks easy, i think its easy too. but on taking a more detailed POV, its not as easy as it looks. theres a pretty good reason why u dont start off a 400m with all guns blazing, cos simply put. say u sprint 100m in 11.x seconds. its pretty safe to assume that u can sprint 400m in maybe 42 seconds?(no acceleration needed) but ffs, we cant sprint 42 seconds. fucking lactic acid will kill us. maybe some people can, i definitely cant. i think its gonna need a lot of passion and mental strength. quote from the article " how much do i really want it. " when i do my fat burn runs, i keep saying "cut cut cut" does that count? =/

lol fuck. i thought i was bad. for the first 3-4 days (excluding orientation) i did say that school was great. now, i realise it is not as nice as i thought it to be. regardless, my friend who went TP for his first day today, is already talking bout not going school anymore. and i took 7 days ^^. im so proud of myself. =P my friend in SP also dont feel like going school anymore, and my other friend in NP keeps whining about should have gone to SRJC. ROFL. im going nuts in this school. why does every fucking person do all their work, and look so diligent in class!?!? why am i the only one laming with my lappie and doing weird things on it!?!? WTF IS WRONG WITH THE CURRENT DAY YOUTHS!?

OMFG.

GAH

FUCK

*cough School... *cough Really... *cough Sucks! *cough.

?? what did i say?

SCHOOL REALLY SUCKS.

fucking hell, i've been living in self denial for 1 week plus, preaching to myself and grinding the thought that school is fun. as the saying goes, " If u think happy, you will be happy." apparently, it dosent work, or it only applies to people suffering from severe cases of hallucination, rather, self-delusion. its not the tutorials that make me bored, in fact i find most of them rather enriching! i use the time, to watch warcraft replays :X. i cant do so at home, cause i always fall asleep after the 3rd or 4th replay. so i do it in class! Applies to lectures too, but its the overall experience that makes me kinda pissed. every class theres homework, and i almost, NEVER do homework. fuck shit, let me live in my own world a while longer can? I'm totally not in the fucking mood to fondle my books, carress my notes, or fiddle with a pen. GAWD



The only plus side, the school gym, GYMWERKZ is kinda good, as in very up to date. but unfortunately, because of a huge turn out, it becomes kinda hard to actually use the benches effectively, but nonetheless, its very, very cool to run on the treadmill and watch TV at the same time! it was 5pm, perfect time to watch Yu Le Bai Fen Bai. woootx =D.



PS : Anyone in NP wanna gym together? i dont wanna go alone T_T

(from bottom up : Singaporter(supposedly black), Gold Ale(the one nearly empty), Indian Pale Ale(Full))


Our escapede at Brewerkz on saturday night! Was reluctant to go initially, after watching The Forbidden Kingdom, it was already around 6+. Arsenal was on at 7+, liverpool on at 10. but was still fuking psychoed to go, 3 vs 1. 1 dont usually win yeah? we went to the one at clarke quay, well because its on the same line as most of us anyway. i love one drink there. and quite reasonably priced too, if we went slightly earlier at 12-6. because we went from 6-8, each jug was $32. if we went before, each one would only be $19! wtf. but whatever. we tried 3 housebrews, and i started off with a glass of singaporter. very unique. since it was black, it was normal to assume it would taste like stout. but it wasnt, it was seemingly like beer, with a hint of coffee in its aftertaste. quite decent. then i tried the Gold Ale. this was fucking gold. if anyone dosent tries this beer in his lifetime, he is one sadded dood. I thought i like corona, i hate budsweiser(is this how u spell it?), i didnt really mind carlsberg. but this was the shit. it owns all the goddamn shit flat. Lastly was the Indian Pale Ale. This tasted very alike Tiger Beer, as a matter of fact, even stronger. some fucking eeeeew shit. balls to it man. i nearly vomitted after ta-ing the stupid shit. those fucking humjis, dont dare ta this. bitches! rawr. Reached home eventually in time to catch the second half of Fulham v Liverpool and that concluded my night.



Sunday was much less eventful tho, woke up without a headache, surprise surprise. too lazy to go for a run though, so went for my usual fucked up breakfast, this time was 3 pieces of chicken fillet, 1 day past its expiry. no wonder it smelt weird. >_< but no wastage of food eh. lawl. then got my mum to buy some fucking soya bean milk after listening to her kpkp on why need so many, so in the end got only 3 cartons. wtf. rest of the day was normal, gaming, and whatever nonsense. developed a few more blisters from playing soccer barefooted with my bros. sucks. fuck my life is so screwed now, to the extent its even funny. so many things i should be doing but i am not. and so many things i shouldnt be doing and i am. my family dosent help much either. arg~ -.-

I'm gonna get fucking owned.



PS : quite bad picture, when viewed on my phone looks a whole lot better, no idea why. :/

making friends in school is actually very tiring, getting to know new people, and given the fact that my class keeps changing, i may not see the same person for 2 different modules. so wheres the interaction supposed to be? even my friend claims that the class have no rapport. of course it dosent. the class as it is, only comes together twice a week for BCOMM lessons? 3:19pm, waiting for my food to digest to go for a run followed by a visit to the gym.~




Suntec City Convention hall 601-602. the place that made me who i am now.

i should sleep more before going for lectures. its getting worse by the day. =/

met 3/4 today, watched streets king(street kings) no idea which starring keanu reeves. pretty nice show, kinda liked the coarse language + nice blood make up. for once it didnt look like animated blood. ^_^

anyone wanna do the mensa test? i can send u then when u press enter u will see the true, or false, depending if u get it wrong or right.. just msn me yeah.. =)


im loving life in poly so far. must have been i've been restricted by my secondary school too much. that i actually enjoy walking around the campus to get to classes, maybe its just a temporary feeling, maybe it isnt. i've got no idea. i kinda like the people i met so far, ranging from my OG, the imba and gosu x-men 1, to the various classes i've been to, its been pretty cool. coming to think of it, i didnt really enjoy the orientation alot. i maybe should have enjoyed it slightly more, and chat around more. but apparently its too late, and everyone of us, have went to different classes, not to mention in all my 6 modules, not a single person from x-men1 is in my class, with the exception of suzana, which i believe is only in my BCOMM class. and apparently for the remaining x-men 1 activities, i seem to be skipping em all. lawl. starting with tomorrow, i've got class from 1-5. then next week bbq, i dont really like social events, unless all are friends, so ya. >_<.




today was such a fun day. went school at 1140 to go for the gymwerk nonsense, and to realise that all the slots for today was occupied, so have to rearrange to another day. some bullshit. then went to send my friend off to block 24 for his lecture, then went canteen 1 and meet another friend for lunch. i dont see how anyone can stotmach canteen 1's economical rice, but so he did. then went for a stupid boring shit lecture ITB that wasted 1 hour of my time listening to the lecturer repeating what was on the slides. after that met my another fren to eat again, then went back home. man how i missed my smoking buddies. and out they popped. =D. went to pass my friend his mass gainer at like 5+ then went to gym with 2/4 of my favourite buddies. today was a really decent work-out, abit over-exagerrated imo, but still good all the same. i finally down my daily recommended intake of protein! 220g =D. it took me 5 scoops of whey to do it, but i did it! wahahah. after gym went to eat aston, at serangoon gardens, then walked back with one of them as he didnt want to go home so early. serangoon gardens to serangoon avenue2, then to upper serangoon road, then to my house, a very long detour, but i didnt really mind. we walked maybe.. 7 bus stops? lolol. tomorrow is another great day! gonna meet 3/4 or maybe all 4 of them~ depending of the situation. since its a wed we probably wont be drinking.. but hey, we are not called drinking buddies eh? =D.

unbelivable stupidity by me. ;/ its 0816 now, and noone called me yet. i dunno if it is even coming anot. fukkk.. zzzz


ok it came =P My extreme milk choco whey~ and jun hui's mass gainer.

Hmm, today's school from 11am - 1pm. nearly was late, when i got lost in school, and my buses came much later than expected. god. NP is so far from my house. zzz. regardless. school is still fun~! making more friends by the day. fuking bcomm lesson. go there 2 hours i ma chiam sleepy for 2 hours. the teacher is quite decent, constantly engaging the class, but shit. the class is too god damn boring. telling me senseless things like, find 2 meanings for the fellow words.

ROW
PRESENT
REFUSE


and 2 more words, im too lazy to even think. make me bring laptop to school for shit also. knnb. fux eh. and tomorrow, still have to fucking go school for a 1 hour lecture. omfg. someone please tell np to fuck off for the first weeeeekkkkk... >_<

damn. 5+ months of holidays have gone past, and i almost achieved nothing. T_T. and today is the dreaded 1st day of school. the day where by tradition, will see weary students, donned in the ever familar white shirt, blue pants stand around the quadrangle, in dismay, as the by now, the by now, hackneyed prinicipal, begins on her stupid welcome back talk. rather, thats later, the beginning of term hymn rolls first.. with noone singing it? Its highly ironic, from a teachers perspective, that the ending of term hymn, the whole school roars in unison, whereas for the beginning of term hymn, its a near silence from the students, except for some overly enthu students of course. I am so stupid again. in my this lifetime which only spanned a paltry 16+ years, as compared with others, i can already find so many things that i regret putting my time into. Life is really like a game. You put more time and effort into making friends, you'll get more. You put more time and effort into working, you'll get more money. and the list rolls on. but then again, i've allocated my time in all the worst ways ever. 5 years plopped down into the drain, a significant chunk from the other 3 years. and with it, the much conveted magical feeling.




My last paper of O'levels, Chemistry paper 1. when it was done, everyone was escatic, eagerly anticipating the subsequent 5 months+ of holidays, except for those i would on no basis, call lamers. Those who go for the 1st 3 weeks of JC. in this entire holiday, the only thing i've done which is reasonable and fun. was a short stint at a cafe in chinatown. me and 2 other friends worked there on various shifts, to the extent of only being on a similar shift twice a week, 2 at a tiime. but i didnt mind. i found the job very fun, and a new experience. i liked the idea of having the whole bar to myself, or the kitchen, or merely serving customers. but due to conflicts with the boss, my friends decided to quit, and i no choice, have to follow suit. the following time, past by in a flash, with me gasping for air, in a desperate attempt to catch up, and now, its all over already. People like to ask, if you could rewind time, what would you change in your life? I've got a very clear idea on what i would change. perhaps.. if i hadn't walked down that path, my life would be bustling with many things i care more about, than merely the last consolation i have now.


>_<

Ahahaa. god. DOTA community of Singapore is still sooo childish~! lawl. comical how i see the website once every week and figure that everyone is still so kid-like. ahaha. tonight ECW was a real disappointment. hG^ vs EsM. EsM is so full of big names like demonsheep, kim, eric. kinda fun i thought. so after hakim and shana lost, i played and vs eric. i win already, then they say they not playing anymore, the other 2 w/o. what a disappointment~ >_<. School starting soon.. hmm. could i /dodge school?


anyway.. poly has been fun.. so far. hope it keeps that way. this year appears to be the last year for wc3 in singapore. omg.. after this year they gonna remove it totally, and let DOTA reign supreme. T_T.

What a heartwarming day, and a relieving day too. i wont ever say i regretted staying back for 3 evenings for some practice, rather 2, but heartwarming because once again, a warm feeling crept into my heart, after watching a touching performance by a few performing groups. It was not meant to be touching, but the rapport, and the amount of fun they were having on stage, was more than sufficient for me to feel touched. im emo k. >_<. relieving because, i can at last, distance myself from that girl. she is friendly, pretty and everything else. but thats bad. because, quite simply put, i kinda feel jealous. and i dont really intend much to let that continue. it was just a stupid orientation, and unless im going to see her everyday which is unlikely, as we are both from different classes, then i totally have no intention whatsoever to come into any further contact with her.


and 1 fucking thing... i got a fucking class, which i know noone. man, this is pissing.. me... off... -_-

One thing i like about girls who are pretty and friendly towards me, is that they give me a sense of, ill just put it as happiness. the other is that, i more often than not, know that in order for them to be friendly towards me, they must be friendly towards everyone else, since im so fucking anti-social, and introverted, so i guess my chances of anything happening from there, is effectively next to nil. she looks so like Cyndi Wang. i was wondering who she resembled yesterday, and i realised it today. her smile. is really just uber. >_< >_< BUT. im self-delusional again. oh well, back to my sanctuary of computer games, where i dont ever. ever have to talk to anyone. girl, or guy.

Day 1 of orientation. what a great day, in some ways. met my OG at 830am. the guys there are pretty cool and decent, to say the least. After the 1st day supposed ending, i was made to stay back together with 1 girl to practice for some performance on friday. supposedly we are doing x-men, and she is storm, and im colosseus. >.< how can i lose to iceman T_T. anyway, the thing finished at 1pm and we had to wait till 5pm as the other OGs, had to finish their orientation for them to send in their representivtives. The girl that went with me, she is very open, and friendly. unfortunately, im not that way. but. her smile. is so sweet and innocent. and she looks rather pretty too. she is nicee! T_T

24/9. should have been much better. perhaps 27/6? lost 1 game due to swayness, lv5 warden died, buy back. on the way back to base die again. revive go out of base instant die. >_<. each time equipped with TP scroll at that too. and alot of lame stupid reasons. well, everyone needs an excuse for losing. and theres only 1 time in my 9 losts that i would say GG to the opponent, or WP. thats when a ud sidespawn, after i killed his dk, and a few ghouls. he dual temple, and tower rush me. fucking innovative. very wp.



mVp Dota team? a few mvpians asked me to join them and create a mVp dota team. seems like im the only one who dosent want to go ahead with it. i stopped playing dota, and i dont see a reason why i should continue. even though theres a small part of me telling me to go and play with them. but that small part, isnt strong enough to influence me.



Tired.

Note to self : Don't ever drink hot milk at 3am in the morning >_<

gosu apm? peak is 400+ not sure how much actually lol. but then again, this apm is nothing compared to my old apm of 296. 212 vs 296. alot of diff. ;/


w3meter is some fun shit. can scroll through various things when im bored, eg, build order. resources. kinda fun.