Tomorrow... Fun day. morning go play compy, afternoon should be still playing. night watch jumper then go liquid kitchen! woo. fun stuff. either go drink to emo or drink to celebrate. ahahaha.
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I'm really allergic to Dunhill. fux. got 2nd bout of breathlessness this morning -_-. and dunhill gives headaches too! and sore throats -_- wtf! so its supposed "charcoal" filter was supposed to help eh? =/. i like LM! cheap brand but nice!
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Thursday, February 14, 2008
I should swear off Dunhill Light. Everytime i smoke that stupid brand, i will feel short of breath, and extremely uncomfortable. not to mention that stupid brand, it burns so god damn fast. i take 8 puffs, and its gone -_-. but yet my friends loves it. what the fuck. -_-. i want Davidoff! 7-11 Please import it again T_T.
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Haha. Half a month back, i remember asking my school friends to play back competitive DOTA with me, and their response was nearly unanimously no. Then, i told them, dont they trust in me? now i realise, the reason why they didn't want to play with me is very simple. I'm no longer the same player like last time. Last time, i could organise hunts while still farming, farm quick, initiate hunts, give them lane movements, and pop up incredible stunts that win games. Last time before the year 2007 Interschool, every draft i played with them, i got holy shit. even when we lost or won. it was not KS, it was a matter of timing. but apparently, now, every draft i play with them, i get a dominating, tao chiu liao. so it appears to me, that they have lost faith already. So i guess it's kinda pointless to try to do something that wouldn't work. not only does statistics show itself, even my DOTA control of heroes, have to myself seem to detoriate. I should listen to them, and just play for fun together. less stressful that way. for once, i'll agree and listen to them.
The Oldie's bug has bitten me! lol =/ listening to songs, long lost.
Some songs has a form of sentimental value to me. Songs like
Because of you - Kelly Clarkson
So sick of Love songs - Neo
The call - Backstreet Boys
Kill you - Eminem
It's gotta be me - N Sync
Blue - Blue
Truly Madly Deeply - Savage Garden
so many songs i long forgotten but listening it to me now, reminds me of my earlier days of my existence. Hais...
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It's so funny how people worship Grubby. I'm not kidding lol. Sure i love him too. literally why i even started orc was because i saw him playing it. reason why i stayed with orc so long, the various strats he used to win against unsurmontable odds. (not as much as moon tho) regardless, if i had to name my favourite orc player, it would be Manuel no doubt. but to this extent?
In response to a article which Grubby published regarding Human Tower rushes.
Grubby : Hey guys, thanks for the positive feedback. Hope it helps.
You know, you would really help my friend who runs the site if you left your comments on the article itself, at www.esportsglobal.com :)
Just saying, if you appreciate the article, please show it by taking the small time to register an account and say hi there. We'd appreciate it =P
Mosaic : OMFG GRUBBY HIMSELF!!!! ANYTHING YOU SAY MY ORCISH FATHER
OMFG. i spent like 2 minutes laughing at that comment. ROFL WTF
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Wednesday, February 13, 2008
lack of sleep
lack of games
lack of entertainment
lack of work
lack of qing shen
lack of micro
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It disappeared faster than i knew. thats good. must be because i've let it out. =)
noone can play DOTA and WC equally well. its true. when i concentrate on WC, my DOTA suffers(like how badly it sucks now), and when i concentrate on DOTA, my WC suffers(like how it did 2 years ago), When i play MMORPG, both suffers -_-(like now).
Whining about my inadequacies, wont really help much.. but.. my micro is bad now! and i won't deny it. zzz
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some things just cannot be said directly.
you may think I am retarded, stupid, childish or whatever,
but this is the truth for me to say the least.
i could never say it again, as i knew it would be impossible.
the person, is very much simply.
the image in the mirror.
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Tuesday, February 12, 2008
i hate the way things had turn out. i done almost everything within my power save of cutting off my internet access, to ensure that i would never have to feel like this again. but yet, things just come flooding back, for reasons i don't know. I can swear i thought i deleted our chat history for good when i changed my phone. but yet, there was a backup on a CD. i even modified my msn. yet this still happens. nothing happened. at all. why must it be you to be the first? following years of introversy, being otracised and alienated by others, why must it be you of all people, to give me back my self-belief that was mercilessly taken away from me? u may not know, but u indirectly did it. and yet, i can't even do fuck about this. for reasons which i personally feel is true and logical. Whenever i think its over, you would pop out of nowhere, and appear right before me again. and each time, the same feeling returns. as much as i try to condemn it, the feeling is omni-present. i'll rather wish i remained lonely and isolated from people, then have to go through this. Cause the feeling combined with the sense of helplessness, really fucks my thoughts. and since the reason is something i can never resolve, no matter how rich, smart, strong-willed i am, i just hope for it to go away quickly. and for my mind to once again be free of such mental stress.
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I keep thinking of something which is impossible. Think of potential routes to make it possible, but yet, too many negative factors dent my hopes. amazingly, i can even imagine...
so fucking sad and disappointed for a cause deem worthy, but a reason i dont quite understand.
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Monday, February 11, 2008
the reason why i hate smiling -_- face ta pai cramp when i force smile -_-
(front row from left : Cynthia(w4nderZ), Shu Chun(Doomie), Jacob(Dejected), Desmond(YM), Wei Long(Koala).)
(back fow from left : God knows =/, god knows(dunchbullyme), Jian Wen(T0iDdi), Stef(stef?), God knows! =/, Wei Yang(OxygeN), Yavin(Susu))
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11 Feb 2008, 3 days to Vday, 5 days to Compy day. As usual this Vday im alone again. i dont wanna stress on why is that so. but ill leave it as it is. =/ those going out on Vday with either family or BF/GF, have a great day, hope it will be one that will never be forgotten, for the right reasons.
Compy day. again, i haven't been training much. i've been trying, attempting to find ladder games but could not find any. only person i train with is like girlyluck, and gowad. i see other people online, with the give-away dual swords sign by the side of their nick, probably they are training with each other. it sucks when you see other people train in such secrecy. and when i look at myself, the amount i train... maybe up to 10 games a day, against Human and Elf. the most fucked up thing, is i cant even switch race during the compy. knn against tagan whose orc mirror is wtf gosu, i cant switch to human or elf to play him. what jokes is that. what stupid rules. knn. fuck back to the luck of the draw. i remember someone told me i always got luck with draws =/.
1)Shana(Human)
2)Oxygen(Orc) maybe random
3)GoWad(Human)
4)GosuBay(Elf)
5)Summoner(Undead)
6)GirLyLucK(Elf)
7)Tagan(Orc)
8)Pinkly(Undead)
9)Nickt(Undead)
10)Charm.Dive(Elf?)
11)Wisdom.Dive(NFI)
12)Torren.DiVe(NFI)
13)LoRDKANiTes(Orc)
14)DarkStrike(undead)
15)CuRns(Human)
16)vLaE(Human)
Human : 4
Orc : 3
Elves : 3
Undead : 4
I really need to win this compy. not for the money. but the pride. i dont wanna lose my title so early in 2008. zzz. but maybe it is a good test to see my credentials for 2008 WCG.
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Sunday, February 10, 2008
Chinese New Year 2008.
Started off the first day with visiting the temple at bugis, and i read the so called "goat" divination lot for this year. it seems amazingly apparent that, i will get injured in almost everything i do, im not supposed to go adventuring, climbing, hiking, canoeing, water sports, travelling. OR take extra safety measures, is that trying to imply that im gonna get killed or something? =.=. Wealth, great stuff, no ill-gotten gains. is gambling considered? lol. just as i thought it was basically the general luck , and may not apply to me, i was given 2 burns from joss sticks, and 1 long scartch on my arm from some idiot's watch. unbelivable shit. -_-. then just went visiting as usual. hate visiting tho, im not familar with any of my couz, and the closest age to mine, is like 26 -_-.
2nd day, supposed to have mVp clan outing today, but seems like... it was postponed to the next day, so i went for my relative lunch, and then visited 1 more relative and the day was relatively free to myself.
3rd day, mVp outing. met doomie at 12 at bugis junction to go sim lim square to buy my phone memory card. then went over to park lane to play pool while waiting for those mVp assholes to come. as usual they are all late. hardly much of a surprise. amazingly, t0i came first.(wowwow) then we went up to meet boss outside starhub and waited for the rest. stef and yavin came next, and boss brought dunchbullyme. we then decided to watch movie, but the queue was so gawd damn long, we gave up and went to eat cafe cartel. this was one of the first lols of the day. we weint into the place with 7 people. boss went up to the counter and said, "i want a table." the person replied, "how many sir?" then boss said a killer sentence. "count yourself."
what the fuck lol. the counter person was momentarily stunned, as her features contorted to a farking pissed female dude. then when we got to our seat, boss the self-proclaimed china man, started talking crap to the china waitresses. he was like
"ni cong zhong guo ma?"
"shi ar"
"na li de"
"qing dao"
and he started talking in some stupid chinese accent, as the conversation proceeded to something like...(i think they were saying something about the waitress being a athelete or something)
"ni de jiao lian shi sui a? yao ming a?"
"bu shi, shi liu xiang"
"Shi a? wo yi wei shi yao ming."
"Zhe yang liu xiang shi na li de ren?"
then the waitress chua tio then she anyhow bomb...
"bei jing"
"Wa.. Liu Xiang cong shang hai de a... ni zhen de shi zhong guo ren ma?"
fucking funny the conversation. then when the fish and chips come. another spectacular shit. the person brought spoons and forks for the fish and cheaps. then boss was like. hello, fish and chips do not use forks and spoons, can we have knives pls? u know knives and forks. fucking lol sia. boss is damn bm. then later on when paying that time. he gave the waitress a 1000 bill. then the manager came and asked boss to go change the $1000 at the money changer downstairs. then boss replied something about not being obligated to exchange for the place. the manager also tio chua tio. fucking jokes sia. then after that went to play lan @ hq branch. following that we went to boss friend's house at potong pasir. which is gawd damn near my house. went there played blackjack for like 1hour+ and the fucking boss CCB suan me like non-stop. knnb. but i also suan him back ba. lawl. and those 3 sluts, koala boss and his friend won like $12 each. knnb. then they went play mahjong then me,DCM,toi,doomie played texas. i raped them dry lolx. effectively recouped my losses =P. then played tai di with deject. fuck man deject is own-self high one. knnb he take cards, and start loling. throw a king pair, lol. throw 4 of a kind 3, also lol. throw full house start loling. wtf. and deject got raped by toi clean. deject lost $9.2 on tai di in 20 minutes. rofl. i broke even tho =P. after that went home, watched sunderland vs wigan, and won $30. woot. hopefully i can recoup my earlier season losses.. ~.~.
Lame things of the day : No picture! DCS(3 variations) god is fair, long hands, short...
Me : Boss pay for cab ride first, later we pay you.
Doomie : He pay for full la
Me : aiya i say for yi shi only leh.
Boss : WTF?
lawlawl
And... Cyn, u should have came earlier, and left later lol. come earlier u see boss china man uneducated enthics and get free lunch. leave later and u would have seen how i was pwnt by boss LOL. beyond that. outside HQ, cause they were saying that NW no space, u help also no use, i told them to trust u(well because u told me to and i would have willingly trusted u anyway), well obviously they got the meaning, but knowing boss, he changed the word TRUST to THRUST. =/
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Wednesday, February 06, 2008
Chinese New Year has dawned upon us again, and as always im a busy man during this period. Painting the walls, setting up decorations, getting rid of old stuff, packing up my computer area... busy stuff. i spent 2 hours plus in the kitchen this evening,(rather last) to prepare all the stuff that would be cooked in tonight's reunion dinner. that aside, i gotta go queue up for roast duck @ 6am, and now its 1.20am >.<. tonight, i cant even sleep in my room. my bedsheet is supposedly "drying" and my bed comforter is drying, hence my bed is naked. sooo, i gotta sleep on the sofa tonight. =\.
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Blademaster and Grunts
Archmage and Elemental
Death Knight and Lich
Demon Hunter and ORB
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Tuesday, February 05, 2008
Fuck i did something stupid... i cancelled my entire template -_-. damn got to reconstruct again zzzzzzzzzz.
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Monday, February 04, 2008
I really wonder sometimes, are people really that domesitcated, whereby they are always mouth-fed regardless of the situation, to the effect that these people even subject other members of the public to have to alter their usual lifestyle to ensure they feel secure, and well-cared for. obviously, this is a exagerration, what i merely mean is that, people assume that others would give way to them, maybe i meet with these people more often than not, but i guess there must be a balance somewhat, of nice people, and spoilt individuals. I, would not claim myself as a nice person, at least not in all aspects, I, however, have values of basic respect embeded in me, and more often than not, would give way to others. this time, im not gonna dissipate to the "emo" realm, but instead, take a very practical example. 2 days ago, i was walking to have my dinner. then i walk past this medicine shop, which has a very short of width path, maybe can fit like 2.25 persons. of course, noone sticks to the side, and i was walking towards the coffee shop, and probably into this female. she was like 18+, on her mp3 and walking straight towards me. apparently her eyes are closed as she walks, or shes dumb, or she thinks i'll give way to her for her to plot such a stupid act. well as usual with a incoming object, i tried to dodge, but this time, i stepped on my own slipper, as i flew forward to the ground, and hitting a few boxes in the process. the thing that pissed me off the most, was not the fact she was dumb or that the boxes were hard, but because the stupid bitch didnt even turn around, to look at what happened, as if shes locked in her own world. how fucking stupid. to end this meaningless(ful) whine,
To : All stupid dumb fucks in singapore.
Please, learn to look when u walk, u think i bang u i will fly back meh? pls look where u are walking, one day when i get pissed, u will see people getting floored by me, and u will not hope it is u.
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Friday, February 01, 2008
getting the hang of potm =/.
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