Minimizing the amount of whinyness in this post, i have tried to change, but obviously there isnt much results, as i am still unable to break through a restricting barrier. but whatever, there are so many people alike me, but yet unlike me. Although it may be true that i would like to enter one, but for me to appear so nonchalant about it, when i am actually not, leaves me with little to hope for, or work towards. though i may feel a little out of place, or miserable to a little extent, this is the life i chose. Although i may be drifting away from my more "self-confined" life, there are attitudes that i picked up throughout that duration, that cling onto me, and i am powerless to shake that off.


I like the idea of fate, but i never indulged in the realism of it. Despite all the coincidences in my life(that i would regard), it all boils down to a simple conclusion. null, zero, nothing. And now, i look at myself in the mirror, imposing illusions into my mind, silently hoping that fate has came knocking again. again. again. But actually, its rather plain, and transparent, and that is I am highly self-delusional and all the thoughts, is kinda nonsensical, and the likelihood of those coming true, is regrettably next to nil. Why? Cause i don't even try. Perceiving it in a more honest light, i'm afraid to try.


But then again, for me to feel such anxiety, and maybe envy, may be a minor testimonial of my resolution. But then again... it won't work out. unless the unthinkable happens...



enough of that inner-sanctum thoughts, time for some more happy stuffs!

1)made over $170 in profit over 2 weekends based on soccer bettings!

2)Chippy!

3)Brewerkz!

4)Magarita!

5)veins? (o_O)

6)Clean break from WC!

7)There is no #7 ^^