damn. 5+ months of holidays have gone past, and i almost achieved nothing. T_T. and today is the dreaded 1st day of school. the day where by tradition, will see weary students, donned in the ever familar white shirt, blue pants stand around the quadrangle, in dismay, as the by now, the by now, hackneyed prinicipal, begins on her stupid welcome back talk. rather, thats later, the beginning of term hymn rolls first.. with noone singing it? Its highly ironic, from a teachers perspective, that the ending of term hymn, the whole school roars in unison, whereas for the beginning of term hymn, its a near silence from the students, except for some overly enthu students of course. I am so stupid again. in my this lifetime which only spanned a paltry 16+ years, as compared with others, i can already find so many things that i regret putting my time into. Life is really like a game. You put more time and effort into making friends, you'll get more. You put more time and effort into working, you'll get more money. and the list rolls on. but then again, i've allocated my time in all the worst ways ever. 5 years plopped down into the drain, a significant chunk from the other 3 years. and with it, the much conveted magical feeling.




My last paper of O'levels, Chemistry paper 1. when it was done, everyone was escatic, eagerly anticipating the subsequent 5 months+ of holidays, except for those i would on no basis, call lamers. Those who go for the 1st 3 weeks of JC. in this entire holiday, the only thing i've done which is reasonable and fun. was a short stint at a cafe in chinatown. me and 2 other friends worked there on various shifts, to the extent of only being on a similar shift twice a week, 2 at a tiime. but i didnt mind. i found the job very fun, and a new experience. i liked the idea of having the whole bar to myself, or the kitchen, or merely serving customers. but due to conflicts with the boss, my friends decided to quit, and i no choice, have to follow suit. the following time, past by in a flash, with me gasping for air, in a desperate attempt to catch up, and now, its all over already. People like to ask, if you could rewind time, what would you change in your life? I've got a very clear idea on what i would change. perhaps.. if i hadn't walked down that path, my life would be bustling with many things i care more about, than merely the last consolation i have now.


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