I hate my com. i hate almost everything bout it. first, my mouse keeps disconnecting during games. which really makes dota not funny anymore, when my qop stands still and i see a ts and zeus running towards me. it happens to me in ggc, i click my bm to lure his mk to chase bit by bit, my mouse jam, my bm cannot control, tio bolt and force tp. zzz. ok enough bout the mouse. Vista is excellent! at making people pissed. i cant direct download any fucking thing, i have to use BT to download every single sad shit. downloading a song, if i try to Direct download with my IE, my com auto restarts! woot excellent stuff. Not only that, i cant log onto msn for 2 hours! i have no fucking idea why, i msged my fren, hes still there, and i just dced. and i cant reconnect. wtf is happening. honestly, im already kinda in a pissy mood, and this kind of thing just compounds that feeling.




I tried being a nice person, and receptive, always trying to find ways and means to accomodate other people. Now, i dont want to do that anymore. If they want, ill do the bare minimum as a friend to help them. anymore than that, i will not stress myself out, or become pissed over reasons unjustified. for, I do not want to be that person anymore. I hate the feeling of sadness,helplessness and desperation. i really do. maybe i'm just over sensitive. maybe i'm self delusional. maybe im crazy. maybe im stupid. I don't like mental breakdowns. once is enough for me. i'm going to do my utmost to avoid the second.