So pissed.

WCG 2006 - WC3 - 3rd
DOTA - 5th-8th

WCG 2007 - WC3 - 9th-16th
DOTA - 4th

wtf man. i cant believe it. i never fed so much in my life. my enigma vs micro was like 5 - 15? and my engima vs nova was like 5-12? how sad. i must suck really badly now. feel sad for a guy in my team though. i just came in, and i like took over his spot. thats really damn bad of me man. i took it over, and i fed so much. big time. hais. >.<

warcraft solo was even more sad. lost to shana in top 16, i can't even express what i felt, or how am i feeling now, or what i did in mere words. even though the latter could be expressed, but i am reluctant to write it. hais. all my training. for shit. i think, i should have done what i set out to do much earlier. quit gaming completely, and start studying. with the conclusion of gxl finals on sunday, or probably sat, knowing my skill level, it is time for me to stop for my o'levels at least.

gaming is cruel. too cruel. the look on your opponent's face when u win, gives you a sort of high, the shaking of his head, as he talks softly to his friends, etc, makes solo worthwhile. but when u realise that you are on the receiving end, the feeling totally sucks. i hate losing. i really do. but i lost in so many aspects already. both in life, and in gaming.


today i got called anti-social again.

fux i know i am, but can you stop pointing that out? ignorance is bliss.