My perception of life, is definitely not what it is. I always thought, take one thing at a time, and just relax, and let nature take its course. things were just as i thought. or was it? many times, i will lay awake, as i reflect back on the day that has just passed ;

wow. 24 hours gone. what have i done?

as i attempt to unearth memories of the passed day, my search becomes more desperate, as i struggle to find a single constructive thing i done. apparently, after a few moments or so, a deed would pop into my head : i have learnt a new strategy today!

wow. seriously wow.

gaming had almost taken over my life, until i stopped it dead in its tracks. i thought warcraft, talked warcraft, shit warcraft, played warcraft. looking back, well maybe to a slight extent, it was worth it. but i wish, i never entered maccyber, back in primary 3. the first time i was exposed to the world of cyber-gamers. i was instantly hooked. how else would i have played so much?

adrenaline pumping, ass-kicking, pure ownage games. help us forget bad things. help us relieve pain. this is true to a very huge extent. my friend once told me this, in response to my question

Eh, are you okay? I heard you got some problems

Nah im fine.

You wanna talk about it in msn?

Nono, i just play warcraft can already.

Huh?

every time i play solo, i will forget about everything. even for 15 minutes, i really love it alot.

my that friend is 4 years older than me. a very nice guy he is. always willing to help me in warcraft, we shared about everything. life, relationship problems, warcraft, all the nonsense. although i must admit, that i only knew him for barely a year, then warcraft plummeted, and he quit warcraft. so i hardly speak to him these days. however, we still meet up occasionally for some gym sessions together, chow, movies etc. =)

i will not let gaming take over my life. gaming has made me arrogant. rugby has made me arrogant. i want to gain back my long-lost humility. through quitting rugby, i already regained much of that, with the repercussion of gaming, i do hope. that i can get through this, without undoing what i have worked for, and sacrificed for.

my humilty.



Enlightenment