I realised so many things recently. many things i thought was out of the question, what i had shunned previously, i have become one of them. many things i thought, i would never do a week ago, a month ago, a year ago, i still have done it. i wonder, and i heading my life the right way? regardless of how much and hard i try, i never seem to get the right conclusion, which i yearn and pine for. is it my damn character? my personality? my style? i never really gave a damn what people thought of how i led my life, i only lead it for myself. or so i thought. who are they to judge who is better, who is worse? right or wrong? as long as i led life the way i liked it, and the best i could, i couldn't care less about what others think, or say about me. its this very same attitude, that got me into so much negative stuffs. its all this mindset, that gets me into endless trouble with my family, and teachers. typical statement from my mum, "Oi! why you still playing games? why don't you pack your bag? help me sweep the floor! STOP THE COMPUTER!" then there she will go on ranting on and on, then she will complain to my dad, and sometimes, i would have to off the computer, should my dad be in a bad mood. usually he isnt, so well, thats still fine. teachers... LOL they are a utter disgrace, and joke to the teaching profession. Well, Some they act as if we talk so much shit, and keeps nagging at us to keep quiet, when in actual fact, we are trying to figure out wtf is she saying, she reiterates by saying that just listen to me, and everything will be fine. If i knew what she was saying, i wouldnt be discussing k, so fark off. this kind of thinking... >_<>

to those who are similar with me, this kind of wtf thinking, and personality, just take life as it is, dont worry too much about the next day, it will come, and it may come better than you expected