Now i understand why so many people say i look very guai lan. its a fact, i do look very guai lan. i must agree to a very huge extent. looking at myself in any mirror, or any reflective object, it always appears to me, that the person staring back at me, is pretty guai lan.

the root of the problem, is that i dont smile enough. when i smile, i realise that the guai lan look, has dissipated. its totally incredible, how i can know such a fact, and yet not do anything about it. but yet, im trying... really hard.

to smile as much as i can, even when im unhappy with something, or disappointed.

its not easy, for a person who dosent like smiling or interacting, to suddenly start smiling at every damn thing.

apparently.