I know i've done a lot of things i shouldn't have done.

Things that brand me a rebel, a bastard,possibly a law violator.

Is there really a god? i tend to wonder.

Sometimes, when i'm really depressed, my last resort is to say a short prayer, and almost all the time, i feel better.

scientifically, it can't be proved, and it apparently has got something to do with the psychological factor.

I don't know, but one thing, i definitely believe in, is that is karma.

what goes around, comes around.

For every negative, comes another.

Positives? maybe.

Even, if i've done so many negative things.

Why dosen't everything just affect me?

Just strike me with lightning, or give me a broken arm, or something similar.

Why must it be things that i care about?

Why must it be emotional and psychological?

can't it just fucking be physical?

Let me just go fucking whine about it.

rather than feel this way, and nothing really happens.

Very intriguing, how can we not even choose our just deserts.

its like, we are just characters moving about in a real-time mmorpg.

there is a gm, that is dishing out everything at his discretion.

we can't reason, we can't do anything else. we just accept. and change, better or worse.


intriguing again, how one can be so nonchalant, when he is so very much affected.


...k ..u ...g