I just want to give up on so many things

But for various reasons, i just can't.

you are right, i would be a bastard

if i just walk away from all these.

but, what else can i do?

i have no choice, but to just face it,

squarely, with the future, a big question mark.

I've thought it through,

Just when i wanted to make a change,

I have you to account for.

this is one of the rare times,

which i am not living for myself.

simply because, i don't bastard good friends

or at least thats what i regard you as.

Please. let it be soon, our agreement.