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my life is all wrong, no rights. nothing is going my way. my family is fighting everyday, i feel so... wasted. i have to be the by-stander, as i watch them scold the F... out of each other... its a sight i never liked, a sound i always hated, insults flew relentlessly, as both seek to win in the ever-lasting ego war, seeking a apology from each other, unsparingly, using any methods available to draw out that 5 syllable word, long lost in transition.


i thought i resolved to settle it one month ago. apparently, not. am i so weak? yeah. thats the word. Oxymoron.

a oxymoron is A rhetorical figure in which incongruous or contradictory terms are combined.

for example, a smart dull kid.
a mournful optimist.

but of course, as in with mandarin, you can break up the word too! it breaks down to : "Oxy" and "moron"

a moron is a person who is notably stupid or lacking in good judgment

Simple man's terms, Oxy is me, while moron describes me. so it basically means i am a moron? notably stupid, i wouldn't agree, but i would admit, i do many stupid things, bad judgment? hardly, but when i do judge wrongly, its really bad... so i would say im the extreme end of a smart moron! a oxymoron!

Amazingly, the first 3 letters are from my nick! Wow. how coincidental! now i realize. its not coincidental, but apparently, it was my intuition, that chose oxygen over other nicks, when i first started. i guess. it was a representation of me.

Yeah.