I can't blame anyone for anything that has happened to me, in no way could i ostracize all the blame away from myself. that would be plain selfish, and ignorant. i guess its the way i think. i always start with the end in mind, and process it with the end in mind. i don't see the bad side of things, i only think about the bad side of things, so in reality, the only thing i actually perceive is the outcome, that i desire. i guess, its all this irrelevant thinking, that actually makes me go into such a depressed state, theres nothing to be sorry for.

幻想.