Ever since i saw you again recently, i have literally been non-stop thinking. was it by chance? was it god's fate? am i supposed to say i'm lucky? or am i supposed to say i've been made to feel like a fool? The earlier is if I have really gotten over it, and the latter if i haven't. contemplation, consideration, choosing. as hard, as i try. amazing effort i tried, it was the latter... I am not supposed to feel like this. you are not supposed to know too anyway, you have a great bunch of similar gender friends and confidants in your group of common interests friends, another guy as your friend, and many other school friends for you to pour out your troubles to...


Playing WC solo the whole day, Playing online CS on my own, playing Offline Games all by my own, staying home all by my own. not going out, keeping to myself. Go for autograph sessions alone, wait for countless hours in the rain by myself when looking around, not a single person was alone except for me. what does this all point out to? simply put, this is acts of a lonely, introvert person. the day came when i met you, and everything changed, it became online games with your friends... i shall stop here. in case you should ever read this, i wouldn't want to cause any awkardness... lets keep things at it is... =)


nearly flared up. the first time.. this year, i nearly flared up.. Hais.. mental toll > physical toll. doing anything alone, seems so hard... Hais...

Tired,Stressed,Lonely,Pathethic Me.