At last, music is up. thanks to wan for it =P

opps, havent posted in a l0ng time. guess cause everyday was too passive =\. today was the opening of the new maple server! it was the D server! o_o? wow tried to hardcore since server started. and omgosh man. at maple island, there was at least. i swear, 200 people in the spawning screen. every damn snail was ksed. every pathetic shroom was raped. i pity those poor mages =x. heng i was trying to be a bowman, dex boosted my attk dmg. so like yeah.. it worked out pretty fine. now currently level 11, very hard to train. i took 2 hours to get off maple island, minus the 375 exp boost on victoria. so yeah wtf! it was a pain in the ass, dying at least 100 times. grr...

RageFaction OxygeN.
i've just joined RF under the wc division recently. i've been receiving alot of msn conversations, asking me about it. the most hurting ones coming from my ex-clan mates. typical chat log? "WTF? YOU JOINED RF?" then they will go on to say you betrayer etc. but come on, get a move on. does it really matter whether i leave? just take my presence as the shifting appration. it moves constantly. stopping to take a look. am i subjected to such verbal insults? but yes, i deserve it. so go ahead. spam me while u can. cos when i've got enough. i will spam back.


a young wife in her quarters,
unacquainted with grief,
on a spring day,
richly made up,
ascends the emerald tower.
Suddenly seeing the colours of willows by the road,
she regrets urging her husband to go in search of honours.

im feeling really bored tonight, and hence imma write a short compo as which i always write. just for the fun of it, and to brush up on my english. my theme today will be "goals". well, cause someone just asked me about my goal. so i thought that maybe. i should give it a go. in discursive style! woots
Goals. what are goals? it is a something like a ambition, where one sets it, and work towards it. goals take on many forms. basically, comes only on a personal and preset basis. preset, is like soccer, the goal of the game is to score. ok sounds corny enough. basketball, to net points. etc etc. personal goals, are set, by a person. either the indivdual or someone else. but are goals that important? isnt ambitions enough?

"my ambition is to be a doctor."
"my goal is to be a doctor."

aint it enough? where does goals set in? goals, is generally short term comparatively speaking.
"my goal is to get 4 A's for this exam."
"my ambition is to get 4 A's for this exam."

does it sound not proper? so is goals that important? i would say so. goals play a very important role in our lives. without goals, we lack direction, we lack motivation. how would it be, if u just played a game without a goal. u play fifa without wanting to win. can that be possible? even in fifa, we will want to go all out for a win. goals is hence omnipresent in our daily lives. set goals for yourself, and strive hard to achieve it!


ok that was really lame, just felt like writing something. anyway.. played gxl yesterday. and wooow. was i owning or. kill here, kill there, holy shit! refresh dual ulti.. wattap imbalanced. well i guess, cause i ksed too much? sry! wagagaga! =\. just found out that my rugby 10's,KOK and gxl finals clash on the same day. wtttf! how! some body save me! balls stressing man. im lazy to go training tomorrow though =x. =p

24/11/06

My first rugby training in 2 years.

ouch.. today i was coaxed by Sherman,Tak Wah and some other friends to go back for training. of course the main core was a external reason which i dont think people should know that much. but yeah.. today woke up @ 7+ cant sleep i dunno why. i then went to hunt for my boots, and took a cycle to school. i expected a unwelcoming reception. apparently, it was the exact opposite. the atmoshpere was where i left off, friendly, with lameness reigning throughout and many other funny stuffs. on the contary, it was a great day. started the training with some Core Training. Core yeah.. the rotary axis of your body, aka the hips area. first we did some stomach training exercise, it was kinda weird, like a push up. but apparently not. kinda tiring, but nah.. not much kick. secondly, we did some cycling crunches. pretty cool, hard to do. last was the bird dog position. ok this was some lol. we just had to afk and stone in 1 position for 1 minute. oww.. gg to my back. >_<. then after that refreshed and touched up on the scrums, as there is a match today, but im not going cos i have a dota match o_O.

Jonathan Leow : Wei Yang, How come you are here? your motherboard blew up? or com crash?

Wei Yang : -.-"


aching all over lawl. must be those gay positions.. >_<


Dota-Wise. ytd played against dunno what time in gxl. won. but it was some wtf. sk 3 times tycoly burrowstriked me. i bh and caught all 5 but then cos he burrow before i blink, i sway sway blink into his burrow 3 times wtf? that is really the most absurd way of getting stunned. biatch.. got triple kill though ^^ =p

i wish to stop gaming right now.as in totally stop. play casually. with my school friends. stop aiming for prizes. aim for laughter and something to reminicse when time catches up with us. but i cant. and am unwilling to let go. with everyday that passes, im getting more and more convinced of the prospect of winning something. i cant let down wrath or geminga now. we are so close to winning something again. i am so afraid of letting people down. i cant live up to others expectation of me. i always care about other's opinion of me. i care too much. i feel too much. but yet. there is noone, noone to tell all my problems. i guess. im a failure so far. i guess thats what fuels my passion. i guess. this is why idols are so addictive. really worshipped. cos of all the lonely people like me. out there without a person who really cares. the warmth.. idols give me is better than the sastifaction i get out from a good result in studies. or even being a champion in anything. the warmth they give... is like no other. irreplacable.

can someone shake me up? rouse me from this stupor. enlighten me on how to be a proper person? it is really strange how stupid and retarded i can get. strictly honest, i'm trying my best to change yet not change. i've taken a more positive approach with some of my friends whereby unlike in the past, i would be more reserved. i try my best to curb all my negative attitudes, yet they still show. why? am i not doing enough? its as though im putting on an act for everyone to see. im trying to change, so that it will become a part of me, a new me. forget bout the arrogant shithead. places himself above the team(im not refering to dota here). snubbing so many coaches just to attain self-grafitication. treating outsiders with more respect than close ones. im trying. im really trying but i just feel like giving up. the past few days. what i've been through, is physically. and mentally taxing. i cant bear to give up now, nor do i have the energy to disengage myself from these problems. im compounding the stress as the day goes on. i try to keep it at the back of my head, try not to think about it, but once it all surfaces together, it is more than a dilemma. im faced with the prospect of something traumatising, but yet can only sit by the side and witness. the unfolding of the trauma. i no longer want to be part of this. but yet am powerless to break free.

Shaman.

to people, shaman is a spiritualistic person, usually in the form of a religious leader. one dated back in ancient times, the magician, who uses enigmatic mantras and sutras to purge curses and heal the sick. and yes. to wc players, shaman is a orc unit albeit imba if used properly, with purge,lightning shield and bloodlust. purge? appears in both context. why? cos the world is constantly in need of purging. take the recent soup-o-human( soup on human ) event, it could only take place cos of some snatch thief was trying to be funny.snatch a old lady handbag and ran off. then this guy, threw his laksa, fish soup i presume and some fishball noodles soup on him. OUCH. why? cos there is wrong doing there is evil. but however, what i really want to purge for me now is.. my bad luck. been on a sway streak. i needa end it somehow someway. hopefully mr thrall aka warchief aka shaman can come by and gimme a good purge. =\.

lost to another human again on ggc. wtf. asshole sia he, EI dont dare play me once tio TS he go and create game. kns kns kns. but its ok. this kind of people are in the minority. and i guess it was some critical mistakes that cost me the game. anyway away from that, beginning to feel my micro improving again. woohoo. refining my play style more by the day =P. dota-wise.. yeah. including one of the more imba heroes into the draft. guess? or at least tried it out. deso pwns 0r. lastly. formerly what was known as team Wra†h is now known as Geminga. <-- guess where it came from! =P

Today(really today) 14/11/06

Today was a rather ok day i guess. in the morning as usual going around jioing people to go out. getting really frustrated at someone. i shall refuse to name him. hais.. thats life i guess. ups and downs. boons and banes. vices everywhere. wth. i went out with mia,xf,takwah and nicholas supposedly to grand cathay to catch flushed away. then mia and takwah was late cos they were held HOSTAGE and hence could not catch that show and watched @ ps instead. and wth. after i dyed my hair red. noone said they noticed. -_-" T_T. i feel so.. >_<. flushed away was a pretty cute show. with rats running around trying to save rat town(yes i said rat town) from impending destruction from froggies(yes i said frogs). the plot is rather ok. animaton so-so. but for a soo unlame person like me their comedy rating is below-par. even though my friends gave a high rating for this movie ( comedy wise ) nah, im not so easily stirred. =\ after that went to eat @ ps lvl6 .. nothing special i guess. >_< then went home.. played some ggc and dota.. yah, then im back here. LoLx.. dcing makes me damn pissed. dced 2 games today. arrgh. ok enough negativity.


im back, yeah im back ooh baby im back. back to u. hi warcraft, long time no train =]. <-- highlight. today my only ggc lost went to a human. wth man. sky is really so gay? he is some china guy but is as good as paul. damn it man he micro of his sorcs.. haish.. i guess thats why my new strat cannot be used in tr? so farking small. no space to lvl. arghh. feeling pretty good on my matchups though, with mirror the only exception. needa find some orc mirror games on ggc! =] hopefully i get what i wish! wahaah. hmm imma love match dota its so damn fun. =] THD is the prawnager! =P

@_@ ? 10/11/06

today was a very interesting day lolz. the day was spent just ggcing laming watching s.h.e vids and stuffs. haish.. then in the evening, i went to meet ken and ren @ ast for some dota training with his ast buddies. so like yah. and i met ivan there. heres a shocker. ivan's smoking now.. omg~! damnx. hope u stop smoking soon ^_^. anyway. i met a few people today. namely Shaun Mok(sorry i dont know who u were previously although i seen u before) keith (damn). well yeah thats about it. seriously, THD is a bloody ownage hero. breath + ice path + macropyre burns anyone to toast in a short time. how cool.

trying out new ggc strats. hard to get used to playing again.. hais.. my orc mirror.. still sucking.. >_<

PS Day.(9/11/06) ( and i dont mean plaza singapura)


today is a uber pung seh day. simpler terms, jacked day. im so pissed off now. everytime i arrange a outing. so many people just dont go. common reasons? mother say cannot. dont feel like, later going somewhere, tuition. dont like where we going. like wtf. if i can make everyone happy wont i be called a god? si bei du lan now. so im not gonna call anyone anymore. i call a person for 7 mins, and in the end still say cant. waste 7 mins of my phone bill. the rest i call liao, message liao. then still ps me. then in the end, those that went all say i sux @ organising. kns. they think damn easy ar. fark. someone who was preaching about even if wanna ps, at least tell in advance. we arranged to meet @ 1230, and he msged me @ 130 and say cant go. wtf? if i ask him, he will definitely say suddenly something cropped up etc. i cant blame him. its just so normal. =] getting more depressed by the day. my will is seeping away. lifeless, driven to the brink of insanity. haish, thats the state im in. pathetic. enough negativity. damn im becoming someone(=X) guess who!

on the bright side, today went to play lan with 3 other khakis. played some cs, and some anime fight @ odyssey. the mouse there is lolx. cs how to play if cant move the mouse? lol! after that went to the food court @ paradiz for lunchy =P. ate xiao wan mian today. damn man. i really love giam. those dong cai + the soup.. is owwwwniiinnngg.

i feel that my wc days ahead are so lonely, no more mvp to talk cock with online, no more FForGND gxl lame week outs. no more toi,ivan,doomie to train with. no more gwing for gay strats. no more dodo to call me CF(online). no more ham's uFoooo~ no more sg grub. no more korean actor. hydra for orc mirror training.DCDC lame voice on skype. haish missed so many things. and the many afternoons after school, i spent ating with cyn. haish. its just a long sad road. Wrath. fTw~!


i can still remember the days
that we went to lan and had fun owning.
training.
and everytime i wanna try it again
times have already changed is it
gone gone gone gone gone.

its officially only about 2 days to my a maths supp paper and i havent even started. omg. i've been failing and will i fail it again.? high chance at the rate im going somemore now... i got a new bike! Woooh! been cycling around my house there the whole day. went to my club in the afternoon for a gym session. lol la. i cycled there. ran there. exercised there and cycled back. lets be fair. the ride there was fun! windy chilled. cool. but the ride back... was a totally different affair. 1 is fun,windy,chilled the other is? tiring,hot,humid. gay. T_T and yeah, hopefully can faster get my a maths supp paper over and done with!

today's attempted movie outing was stopped because of countless Pung Sehs accross the land. well i can really consider them as PS but of course they dun want to go just cause they dont like rats --" im sure u know what im refering to. so like yah, wth. retardecy rules among them i guess.

Woohoo.. today developed a new strat against human. tried it on Gowad, A.K.A XF and Toi. can we have it up for toi who is making a comeback like me! woohoo! toi ftw! i can say it worked pretty well. very effective. as for what the strat is.? nah im never gonna say it here. not good =]. wahah. i've got a working strategically inclined mind again =]

today is cycling day! wahaha. and also ps day. lolx. i got psed by at least 3 different people today. wth. first it was tak wah, ps us for rugby training, then it was nicholas, for tuition, gideon something on and finally mia sim who kept us waiting for about 15 minutes. only to say he dosent want to go. woots? not really. but yeah, met surya @ 1245 serangoon mrt. we then took train down to pp and bus 13 to east coast. ouch, we alighted 5 stops before, and had to walk. 5 bus stops to sherman's house. heng enough, he got bikes for us all and no need to rent @ there. normal cycling until when we made our way back. cos to get to his house have to travel up this pretty steep slope, then as i was accelerating to make a turn and go up the slope, some asshole parked his car. i had to swerve away and in the end had to embark on a gruelling minute long journey up the damn slope. damn it. but well yeah. the rest was pretty normal.


getting sian of ggc ladder, always tio lvl1 those super freefrags and stuffs. making me lose interest in wc once again. damn~! >_< been dotaing much lately, and i can only say one thing. whats the only intel hero that has less armor than engima? guess! i had to use it. but yeah it was a r0xxx0rr hero =P. quit solo and dota again? haish mayb yes, mayb not =X.

Decisions.


why is it that sometimes when i make a decision, i am not able to carry out with it. why is it that i could speak so big at that moment, and i wont carry out what i spoke. why is it that i could never comprehend how i thought. why is it that i care too much about how people think of me. why cant i find that spark once again. why.
why is it that when i decided to leave rugby why am i once again considering to join back rugby. is it cause of the fact that i want to play again? the team needs me? a sense of belonging? or just for self-gratification? i never would understand myself. im a failure in many things. i failed to keep many promises. i fail to tell the whole truth on most occasions. i fail to be able to upkeep promises to myself. i fail in studies. i fail in love. i fail in games. i betrayed my friend a few years back, and till now, i've never forgiven myself totally. i've never recovered from that childhood scar that was left behind by some of my seniors. i have never succeeded in breaking out of my introversial shell. i've developed a inferiority complex as a result. i live in self-denial. the believe that by being the best. is testimony to greatness. a aura of invicibility. respected by many. apparently, things do not turn out as i want it to be. somehow someway, i cant shed any tears. i dont know why. sometimes, i just wanna let it all out. but these times. i have noone to turn to anymore to talk about it. the last time i tried, produced dire results. interesting enough, after watching very sad shows, or motivating stories, excessive pain i still cant shed a tear. but yet, a few months ago, i actually shed a tear for a very stupid reason, i was so stupid then. it was plain for all to see, yet i convinced myself otherwise. if it was to continue. it was a totally retarded choice. looking at others, and trying to be a second one like them was going to fail. i guess toi was right. ending it early was the right thing to do. as would a tower rush, dont allow the opponent to tech up but instead go in for the kill, gg, and its over. just like that. in a blink of a eyelid, these kind of things, only happen once per game. miss it, and u will never get it back. sometimes, it is just too hard to let the game drag. it will end in both getting frustrated. irritated until finally one person will win the game. pointless.
Dont understand? you shouldnt. its not that easy to understand unless u know background knowledge of it.


enough sidetracking. im faced with another decision which i thought was settled a few months ago. to rejoin rugby, go through another gruelling 4 months of training, coming out of it with glory, sastifaction or to leave it forever, coming out of secondary school with only gaming to my name but yet enjoy my whole holidays and everything else. its not that easy to decide i guess. if everything was so straight forward, i wont be so stressed. i wont be so annoyed, dissastified. i cant type it all out. i need someone to talk it over slowly. but is it that easy to find someone who is so sincere to care about you?

Answer? : NO

CAPL Elites.

yesterday the 4th of november was one of the most du lan warcraft day in my life. i am in the elite group of warcraft III. and before this tournament, i told some friends that the one of the people who have a high chance of knocking me out was nickt(i heard he improved). and seriously, sway sway tio him. then i was like. ok sway. nevermind i shall just go and play and try my best. i realised he was not as good as i thought him to be. but the most gay thing was that.. i forgot my invul pot and instead got raped by silence. how wtf. game 1. second game. ok la. i use my same old good strat. and beat him. 3rd game. he stone in base for 10 minutes for no rhyme or reason. just to gay me nia. wth. i was so du lan that i just went in. and lost the game resulting from 2 such expeditions into his base. good plan, make opponent du lan and win =] really damn pissed. as to why am i playing wc again.. i dunno =X. guess its the ggc ladder. so fun and without lag. =]

S.H.E giving their thank you speech @ GMCA
Hebe Chatting with the Crowd @ IMM
ANDY LAU @ GMCA!
S.H.E During their chat Session!
S.H.E Going on stage for their award.

Pix of all events(except PAYM)

IMM open air carpark. Venue of the Qian Chang Hui

Holidays So Far.

damnx, what get any more boring then having to go back to school during holidays? monday i had a maths, whereby we covered a new topic, matrices. at first impression it was pretty easy, but who knows. people say that the later portions of it is hard. o_o no clue, let life take its course ba ^_^. after a maths, i went for lan/arcading after that.same usual stuff, except this time massing cs instead. really interesting looowlx =P. time crisis 2~! tuesday, we went to takwah house, with gideon and surya. interesting enough, i ran there. from my house in serangoon. ( u did not read wrong) its like from serangoon to boon keng.. hmmx. owww~ after that we played mahjong/cards. really lame stuffs. wednesday, went for chem only to be told by a message on the board that class is cancelled. wow! im lurving it. instead went to play lan @ dhoby there. only again to be told that the lan is closed for renovation. wattab barbecue. so finally, we settled for takwah house(AGAIN) and play cards and mahjong(AGAIN) but nah, its pretty fun with friends bah. =P.


Results.

A maths - E8
English - B4
Humanities - A2
E maths - C5
Physics - C6
Chemistry - C5
Chinese - B4

Supplementary papers needed --> A maths >_<