"Its Time.. To STUDY!"

ok, now there is a incredible problem i never faced before. im doing far below par in so many subjects. i wonder whats happening. i guess thats what they mean by unlike lower secondary, i cannot study 1 day in advance and hope to get an "A", i tell them, bullshit, i still can. the only reason why my marks are so bad, is because... i dont even study. from this day on, till the end of my exam, i resolve to play at most 1 hour of maple a day on weekdays, and another for blogging/fanfictioning. so thats 2 hours of computer a day. down from 7? 5/7 = 76%? some prawns. but i have no choice, imagine if some screwed up results appear on my report book, im so farking screwed for the rest of my dec hols, i needa avoid that! back to the main point. i intend to study @ mia sim house over the next few days. hopefully i can get the mood there... downloading lots of cool songs recently. hope it gets cooler! damn, i wish i got nuff money to catch the quan qiu hua yu ge qu ban jiang ban. its $48. hope i got enough soon, without denting the hope of my MP4. =)

gg gl hf to those studying for exams, especially for O'levels, promotion,A'levels, Year end. whatever.

=P

LwY-.

"Mood Swings"

I guess what they all say is true. i've changed. i've changed from the quiet one to the loud one. i changed from the annoyed to the annoying. i've changed from a happy-go-lucky guy to a health concious guy. i've changed. why do people change? it is because there is a sudden preference or there is a need for it, or just part of living life. mine is because i feel there is a need for it. my friends are never supportive. dont ask me why. they all forever critical about everything. i will not say im not part of that, but deep down inside everyone of them, i'll bet they'll want each other to stop being so criticial. but afraid to speak out, all keep it to themselves. this led to the drastic change. i was not really a part of them. until i changed. i was just the "leader" which does not participate in anything.. but i wanted to participate. so i forced myself to fork out more time from my gaming to spend time with my friends. to be honest, it was time well spent. ok enough side tracking.


i've been experiencing alot of mood swings recently. i could be laughing before reccess and dead serious after. this misleads my friends to still think im a cheerful mood when im not. i've flared up once or twice this week so far... hopefully not any more... and nearly flared up countless times else. self-control is what they call it, self -restrain. i guess it is because of all the stress im feeling. studies stress. i failed my a maths again, and dont really understand much in class. i dont see any point of carrying on with the subject. i'm literally being dragged into a bottomless pit due to my streching for that unnecessary book lodged on the cliff. with every ounce of strength i pull myself towards it, im moving a distance away from the top. haixx.. i hope.. with decent study time(=x) for this exam, i can use force pull and pull it towards me instead... Haish!

GG NO RE.

"Warcraft III the Frozen Throne"

As much as i wish i could forget all about warcraft, and carry on life as a student, i cant. even after deciding i shall not play warcraft anymore, there is a certain part of me that still yearns from warcraft. after all, i've played the game since ROC, went through all the trends phases, which included CHAOS,ENFOS,TOWER WAR,FOOTIE FRENZY,BATTLE SHIPS, WINTERMAUL and finally DOTA. i still get the feeling which i get no where else when playing wc. the feeling of ecstacy, the feeling of highness. the feeling of owning. the feeling of outmicroing to win... is only present in warcraft. as much as i hate to admit it, i'm comtemplating continuing playing warcraft. i have not touch GGC for say 10 days now... GGC is where i play cos of low lag, hence high shoikness when i win. continuing warcraft is not a choice where i can continue without having anyone to talk with about. i hope friends can stop shunning warcraft. and me that go with it, come out and support me instead. but if u genuinely really think i should forget it and sincerely, pls tell me too. dont lead me on another run around the park for another year. thanks.

Signed.
LwY-

"Exams, exams test exams?"

exams are around the corner and practically all my teachers are fretting about the exams... so its little wonder that today we spent 1 and a half hour out of 2 hours learning some stupid english proposal shit. i've got the crux within like.. 3 minutes? the other time was to clarify the more obvious shit. my english teacher is like ... lolx... she goes around 1 big circle to answer 1 question, and in the end still does not answer it -_-" so basically when we ask questions, we'll get an answer, and we'll infer from there since the question is never properly answered. shes also the first teacher i heard telling students that if u think its correct.. just mark it correct. i mean like wtf... we are trying to reason and she just cut us off like that..? maybe its her experience (shes a very old teacher) or shes just basically stuck up. dunno which is which but i'll accept school as it is ba... initially wanted to go surya's house to teach him some wc, until he psed me and go watch movie... so i decided to go a maths remedial... man wtf.. i was totally.. stunned.. stunned.. questions like e(x-1) = 2.3 i mean.. like wtf fark off man how the hell do i know.. but i found out later.. the answer. it is like 1.842.. those who dont learn emaths, try and figure. =P. went back home after a maths, and did some mapling as usual. i got like a pathetic 65% in 1 1/2 hours.. damn.. levelling up is getting slower =(
T_T anyways off i go.. got some chemmy to do =//~!


just realised my history book is missing >_<~!

"Significance of the Song~"

this song is about a little girl as she grows up, learns the realities of life. she still does not understand why do grown ups like to take time off to drown their sorrows in liqour rather than finding time to find a better solution to the problem rather than trying to keep it as far back in the mind as possible. the line. “?? ?? ??????”has a great significant meaning to me. 30th august, 2005. on my first official tournament, when i was totally raw to the warcraft community. for those who was present at NYP then, i was the orc that towered everyone. i won the inter-school warcraft compy on my first attempt. since then, i've been harbouring dreams of becoming one of the top3 players in WCG singapore. everyone i knew. told me that it was impossible. all discouraging me, telling me to spend my time elsewhere, more productive. most sneer at the fact i train so much wc, with possibly no hope of realising my dreams. when i was at my lowest, tired out from all criticsm, this song, this line was what kept me going. every time i listen to this song, i get a renewed motivation, a renewed incentive. to continue training. it tells us to strive to become a star that shines brightly. not afraid of the odds, fear, negativity, continue with what we believe is right, until we can change the people around us from thinking it is a waste of time, to jealously. the song also tells us to be a star that always shine brightly, because we have the power to control negativity in our lives. i lost all competitiveness already. i cant do what i used to love doing, mass wc. lastly, it emphasises on courage. courage to deal with failure, courage to press on with what we are doing, courage to win, courage to try. courage comes from within. it can never be bought,sold,traded,made. one of the more inspiring chinese songs..~~ Link -- http://www.yousendit.com/transfer.php?action=download&ufid=767A4509711AD423

"What a week phew~!"

seriously, what a week. this week we had 5 hours of free periods. that is like 1/6 of school time slacking >_<. this week, i was totally unprepared for school, following the holidays where i spent every day either playing or training for my tournament. mentally prepared? nahhh.. i was lethargic, weary, pissed. u name the emotion, i displayed it. this week was emotionally very taxing for me. too much stress from family,friends,peers,studies,games, nearly gave me one of my very rare emotional breakdowns. i am pretty well known for holding stress well, but this week, i was this close to not be able to take it any further. not much help from family and friends huh? but im a introvert so dont worry i will get by well enough =). singers, sing, songs. if not for the presence of songs this whole week, i probably would have broke down. songs were ringing through my head as i struggled to hold back a punch for a well-deserved annoying guy. songs rang through my head as i held back my vast arsenal of verbal insults at a particularly act-cute person. songs songs songs. there is this song, that i find very inspiring and motivating, and would like to share with all readers of my blog. i couldnt post it on my previous blog as it was too messy and it will totally complicate everything there...

S.H.E - 星星之火

女孩 越过小路爬上了山丘
那时的她 还不懂为什么
萤火虫都不动 停驻在夜空
点亮了小小宇宙

女孩 慢慢长大却还是懵懂
那时的她 还不懂为什么
大人们能抽空 为失恋喝杯酒
却没空看看星空

“不要 不要 忘了做过的梦”
天上星星 仿佛听她述说 兴奋地闪烁

我要变成那一颗星星 整夜都亮晶晶
不怕阴暗的黑影 骄傲地闪不停
SHINING (SHINING) 亮丽到月儿都妒忌
灿烂的一颗星星 一生也亮晶晶
因为夜归的背影 有了我的指引
SHINING (SHINING) 勇气就在你手心

this song is about a little girl as she grows up, learns the realities of life. she still does not understand why do grown ups like to take time off to drown their sorrows in liqour rather than finding time to find a better solution to the problem rather than trying to keep it as far back in the mind as possible. the line. “?? ?? ??????”has a great significant meaning to me. 30th august, 2005. on my first official tournament, when i was totally raw to the warcraft community. for those who was present at NYP then, i was the orc that towered everyone. i won the inter-school warcraft compy on my first attempt. since then, i've been harbouring dreams of becoming one of the top3 players in WCG singapore. everyone i knew. told me that it was impossible. all discouraging me, telling me to spend my time elsewhere, more productive. most sneer at the fact i train so much wc, with possibly no hope of realising my dreams. when i was at my lowest, tired out from all criticsm, this song, this line was what kept me going. every time i listen to this song, i get a renewed motivation, a renewed incentive. to continue training. it tells us to strive to become a star that shines brightly. not afraid of the odds, fear, negativity, continue with what we believe is right, until we can change the people around us from thinking it is a waste of time, to jealously. the song also tells us to be a star that always shine brightly, because we have the power to control negativity in our lives. i lost all competitiveness already. i cant do what i used to love doing, mass wc. lastly, it emphasises on courage. courage to deal with failure, courage to press on with what we are doing, courage to win, courage to try. courage comes from within. it can never be bought,sold,traded,made. one of the more inspiring chinese songs..~~ Link -- http://www.yousendit.com/transfer.php?action=download&ufid=767A4509711AD423

"Is Maple a gay game"

is maple really a gay game? out of all the friends that spoke with me today, about 10 of them; all 10 said it was gay. so is maple a gay game actually? true, it is lame to use 1 character jump left,right,attack,quest with no ability to PK. but do they know that it is the quest that keeps the game upbeat and exicting? imagine MU. i was once addicted to MU, as with them. why wasnt MU a gay game? it is literally the same as maple, losing is some aspects. the only upside is that it can PK? so PK > gameplay? i doubt so. Maple is a game whereby i like to challenge myself. for example, i would tell myself to get 30% by this amount of time. within this time i wont slack at all and keep training. Maple also teaches those younger how to manage what they have, in this case, the SP and AP. anyhow attributing them will result in a understated character... they will learn it the hard way =).


True, maple is dominated by young school kids. this is evident by the fact that.. i played maple the past week from tuesday to friday. every night had an ok lag until today. the lag was unbearable. pressing "F" ( my pick up button ) over 50 items i could at most pick up 8. how pathetic and how weak the server must be. compared to the battle.net (last time) where no matter how many people was online, it was lag-free. smooth like lan.

Maple is further dominated by childish people... for instance, when i was like lvl 24, i met this guy in dungeon. i just decided to have some fun and ks his horny mushrooms. he then started kpkbing and brought in his other bandit. ironically enough, his bandit was just a lvl 31 bandit and his 6 hit spell was ahem lousier than my claw. LOLX. that guy's probably a sad kid. so i wont blame him.

in conclusion, i in no way find maple gay. the only gay thing about maple? is the players themselves. there are TOO MANY KIDS. and i mean it.

DAMNX

"Retaining Confidence"

confidence. is a attribute that comes naturally to everyone in times of success, good, happiness. can confidence be measured? yes it can. when your down, you have low self-esteem; low confidence. facing with every day's decision, u have sometime called natural confidence to take the every day risks like jay-walking. when you are on a roll, you will get high confidence. during this time, you think you are unbeatable, and will try many new things. confidence is always present in egoistic people. too much confidence leads to arrogance.


having confidence when you are on a roll is simple. just maintain ur composure and continue with what u were doing before. but how hard is it to retain confidence when it is the opposite? truth be told, it is not easy. not easy? it goes to the point of down right tough. to remain confident in difficult times, there are a few ways, 1) remain optimistic. 2) find someone to confide in 3) solve the problem as soon as possible. what does it mean to take each solution?

1) to remain optimistic. this is basically the lame man's way of solving problems. sure it sounds positive. imagine OPTIMISTIC. that is nonsense. it is just a way of giving an excuse for not doing anything; a very good excuse. well.. at least.. u dont really have to do anything and can still hope to get things done =)

2) find someone to confide in. this will help bolster confidence level by alot should you be able to find someone trust worthy to confide in. this is a alot healthier alternative, and the both of you together can even find ways to solve the problem that is causing a dent in your confidence level =).

3)solve it myself. the loner's way out. this is the most effective in my opinion and it helps bring awareness of your own limits so that in future you know how much you can push yourself and hence feel more confident about yourself. only downside is that your friends will feel they are neglected. =/

today's post is based on the alarming rate of depression surrounding me and including myself. this is a reminder for myself.

Nest burning..~~
Hornet snacks!
Aftermath of the burned tree!
Hornets and nonsense!


"Help! The Hornets are coming!"

whats a hornet? its a bee-like thing that carries a equally bee-like painful sting..12/9/2006. as i was gearing up to watch Maggi and Me and 8, suddenly this guy came and knocked the door and told us to close everything as they are gonna burn down a hornets nest. first impression? wtf? hornet nest outside my house.. wooow. then i was like ok this is gonna get cool.. so i went upstairs to take a closer look and what they were doing. they had this ladder like thing, whereby a super armored guy ( liken this to a spacesuit ) climbed up and spray some weird chemical on the tree. he then took a flame thrower like thing and lit up that particular portion where the hornet nest is. so it burned... and burned... burned somemore until the nest finally dropped off the tree and on to my neighbour's pavement. they then sprayed the entire area with some pesticide. after alot of drama with lots of shouts here and there, they went away in the van they came with. net result? a toasted nest with many hornet snacks.

"Where's my Bag?"

11/9/06

today is a very special day in international history, and chinese pop history. in case you are wondering why i said that, its because this is the official day of release of S.H.E's first album 5 years ago! betcha didnt know. =P. today in chinese class, as our chinese teacher was unable to be present in the classroom, the school assigned a relief teacher to our class. but who is it? it is non other than my former rugby coach; Mr Romano. this is the fun part. Romano feels at home with ruggers so during this chinese class, he decided to play a prank on Tak Wah. it started off with Tak Wah dozing off whereby Romano took a few of his pens and started playing with them. sensing no reaction from Tak Wah, he decided to carry out his plot # 93919 to create some life and get some sastifaction from disturbing Tak Wah.he took Tak Wah's bag and put it on a chair at the back of the class room, whereby Marc Tan followed up by placing another chair on top, and turning it to face a corner. Romano then decided to kick the ball rolling by asking Tak Wah to do his work. needless to say, when he tried to find his book, he found his bag missing. ( to cut the story shorter abit ) Tak Wah then took a walk around the class and starting asking everyone on where it is and who took it. shaun did this reality TV thing whereby as Tak Wah went closer to the bag, Shaun started "titititititi" but when he was further, shaun went " ti... ti... ti..." being in his distressed state, he did not catch the hint and he even "sweared" that he will strip and shave the person who took his bag. after walking around a few times, he discovered the bag and everyone pointed to Mr Romano. he trying to be innocent, decided to frame me up in his scandal. the good prevails; and the truth came to light~ and Romano was the culprit!

PS : Tak Wah did not shave him =( T_T

Huat Cai = Huat Gai Na?

this was totally spastic and retarded. "Huat Cai" is my pet phrase i like to use in school after taking it from the dota games i play with my team. everytime something interesting happens, i will just shout out "Huat Cai La" however today during the english class, i think Shaun and Alton was too bored... until they changed Huat Cai into Huat Gai Na. wad is going through shaun's head?!?! how the hell can he think of such sick substitutes for Huat Cai! i dont know =_=. then they started spreading.. that i was shouting Huat Gai Na instead of Huat Cai.. how stupid? cos i seriously meant Huat Cai.. >_< so close friends started shouting Huat Gai Na.. how retarded -_-" today's just the beginning.. T_T~!

DRUNK?

it was our every holiday drinking session; whereby someone will bring the stuff and we will go to someone's house to drink.. however today, mr ngai kay decided to tag along. i personally hate beer. i prefer wine... but as he could not find wine, i had to settle for beer. so basically our beer had 3 different alcohol values; 5.0% ,8.9% and 11.2%. i took the 5.0% which was heineken. ngai kay, decided to act like some huat dork and took the 10.2%. the most ironic thing was that someone dared him to drink 4 gulps. and of course being the egoistic person as he is, he took up the dare and drank 4; on top of that he took 2 more. when we were playing monopoly, he suddenly got totally high on the 5th gulp whereby he starting jumping around and kept shouting : " Look at me! i can jump! u are the drunk one wei yang! " of course we all knew who was the drunk one but we kept quiet. ngai kay at that moment of time was totally red. not a sign of drunkness in my opinion but he was totally out of control. then his parents came to pick him up. basically we tried to detoxify him by making him piss etc. but he didnt want. soooo.. his parents called up my friend's house and chided my friend's parent. this whole incident was a total joke and was caused by? Ong Xian Fu =P <---- highlight to know
wahahaha =D

WARCRAFT


08/09/2006

i've been putting off my retirement from competitive warcraft for let me see.. 2 years? yea! its that long! the day finally came on the 8th september when i shockingly lost in the early rounds of the WGT competition. well i guess that part i had only myself to blame. the whole week i have been slacking w/o training. what did i expect? however i did put in effort to train sufficiently i think. but.. the only thing i didnt train which is orc mirror. really took place. i trained against so many humans,orcs,elves, but alas. ironically i hit a orc as my opponent and i had to bow out really early. before WCG i told myself that WCG would be my last tournament. but after winning that 3rd prize.. why not try for more? who isnt greedy? since WGT i lost. i guess its really time for me to pack up my keyboard go home sleep and forget all about this whole thing. haizz.. it has been 4 years i put into warcraft... such a waste to give up all my experience... but who cares bout that anyway. i have no real friends in the warcraft world. so its okay =P they will just remember me as a person who got lucky in WCG. =) it is time for me to revert back to a down to earth person instead of a competitive gamer. now it is time to spend time with my friends.. play lame games.. maybe ladder.. all this kind of pointless stuff.. GG no RE to me! LoLx