Why should i always appear weak. why does my msn nick always show me as a down and out person? why do i not dare to challenge insults on me? i guess. its uncomprehensible by me. but one thing's for sure. Boss, i've done all i can. i've apologised. i've talked to some of the mvpians. only you have refused to let go. sure, i've betrayed. whatever u want to say. but i think. that people like Ng Jian Wen and Tse Shu Chun knows the meaning of Friendship > gaming more than you. if u dont even know who is Tse Shu Chun, then lol. i dont know what else i can do anymore to make u any less du lan than you are feeling now. i feel i've done enough. the rest, is for you to handle.

why do i always put myself down. "oxygen sucks, i suck" does that not appear on my msn nick with an alarming regularity? i guess, i was living in self-delusion. i should snap out of it. but little means, do i suck. playing wc3, i dont feel im really outclassed in anyway when i lose. i only lose because of inexperience, not micro. give me a balanced micro match up and lets see who will come out top. dota, after losing a dota match, i blame myself. whatever for? just learn from it and move on. i guess what they said was right. im too emo. even though i shouldnt be showing that side of me. gg gl hf to those who think that words can put me down. cause it wont.

its time to come out of self-delusion.
retrain myself to my very best.
and finish what i set off to do.
WCG 2007, here i come.