I was arrogant, i was proud.
I thought myself as one of the best.
I didnt take advice,
I couldnt take criticism
I went against logic, to make myself proud
I did everything i could, to make others think i was great.

in actual fact.

I was stupid, i was dumb
I am one of the worst
I was dumb to not take advice
I was childish not to be able to take criticism
I am lousy in every aspect of character,
I succeeded, at the price of cheapening my character.

after swimming in the pool, things became apparent to me. a apt description of me would be.

Within everyone, they just want to be loved.
I had to put on a false front, to make myself appear strong
i could not take defeat, i would not take blame
I thought i was perfect,flawless as could be.

Cracked,Flawed,Shattered.
My character sucks beyond reason.
I dont blame those who dislike me.
Those who hated me once.

Those i betrayed,
Those i Scolded,
Those i fought with,
Those i Stared at,
Those i challenged,

I'm sorry.

beneath that gruff exterior, lies a quiet, introvert, who succumbs to emotional hurt easily.