"Mood Swings"

I guess what they all say is true. i've changed. i've changed from the quiet one to the loud one. i changed from the annoyed to the annoying. i've changed from a happy-go-lucky guy to a health concious guy. i've changed. why do people change? it is because there is a sudden preference or there is a need for it, or just part of living life. mine is because i feel there is a need for it. my friends are never supportive. dont ask me why. they all forever critical about everything. i will not say im not part of that, but deep down inside everyone of them, i'll bet they'll want each other to stop being so criticial. but afraid to speak out, all keep it to themselves. this led to the drastic change. i was not really a part of them. until i changed. i was just the "leader" which does not participate in anything.. but i wanted to participate. so i forced myself to fork out more time from my gaming to spend time with my friends. to be honest, it was time well spent. ok enough side tracking.


i've been experiencing alot of mood swings recently. i could be laughing before reccess and dead serious after. this misleads my friends to still think im a cheerful mood when im not. i've flared up once or twice this week so far... hopefully not any more... and nearly flared up countless times else. self-control is what they call it, self -restrain. i guess it is because of all the stress im feeling. studies stress. i failed my a maths again, and dont really understand much in class. i dont see any point of carrying on with the subject. i'm literally being dragged into a bottomless pit due to my streching for that unnecessary book lodged on the cliff. with every ounce of strength i pull myself towards it, im moving a distance away from the top. haixx.. i hope.. with decent study time(=x) for this exam, i can use force pull and pull it towards me instead... Haish!

GG NO RE.